LiLMiZnAnA

2006-05-05T19:24:00.000-07:00

ive moved to

http://lilmiznana.blogspot.com/

adios!!

2006-05-04T20:37:00.000-07:00

MOOOO-ving on

i gues im moving on...reali...i duno y either...nyahahah...for soo long ive nt been TIS hapi...i gues ppl come n go in ur lyf...i tink im back evri1...th crazy gurl uve known has come back...ive kicked off evriting...lets stat a new...

HE can move on n so do i....im sick n tired of waiting...waiting n waiting...as u dun lyk to wait for me...i OSO DUN LYK WAITING...y i wana wait for sum1 hu dun appreciate me?if u appreciate me,u wld treat me lyk tis...1 bloody ting tat i wana tell u....PLZ STOP HURTING GURLZ!!its nt fun okei...if u luv sum1,no matter wher they r...hu ever they r...u wif them n nt flirt wif others...if ure nt readi for a relationship,den DUN...grow up plz...i noe ure proud tat u didnt grow up...so wat?relationship is for growing up...if nt,u can still move on wif ur cinta monyet...1 little ting for ya....

rule no1:JANGAN MENGHARAP...

tats for u...i juz dun understand...tis is how FAIR u treat ur fren...heh!wat a gd fren u r...tankiu for evriting...tankiu 4 being my fren wen needed...bt sori skit eh...im nt lyk u...i appreciate u alot in my lyf...ure sum1 hu once or twice or bape2 lar....came to my lyf...its been a yr...n tankiu...i hope tat u had a great lyf ahead n find wat uve been searching for...b urself...dun b lyk others...i noe tat ure a special person...b tat person...frenz will owayz b ther wen u nid them most...im here............

i wen out wif ma babe todae...woohooo!!!been so th hapi2 lar...gile tk terkate...nyahahah....i duno y im so so so hapi lar...mayb becoz of yest...nyahahah....tanx to sum1...u DID cheer up my day...i dun tink its a day...i tink its ma whole lyf...ive neva been TAT hapi for sooooo long....haiz....heheheheh...i cant stop smiling...gile lar...pipi sakit lar...hohohoh...tmr working fullshift...i lyk...ape yg suke pon tk tahu...okei da belo...

ok go!!

as i look back in th past...it hurts...

2006-05-01T13:35:00.000-07:00

so long my friend, don't say goodbye
just give me one last kiss beneath this glowing sky.
we'll go walking through the park
and hang out in the rain.
tell a joke and watch me smile
as we drink away the day.

and know the next time that you
make a wish upon a star
I'll be wishing on the same one that you do
and every night I'm all alone
in some burn out highway town
I'll be thinking of the day that I met you.

hello again, it's been to long.
what happened to our love
since the last time I was gone?

I detach myself again
and lose something everytime.
the solutions in the problem
temporarily alright.

and know the next time that you
make a wish upon a star
that sometimes it might actually come true.
our conversation can't consist of hello and goodbye
and the silence between saying I love you.
and sometimes I wonder 'bout that too.

2006-05-01T13:12:00.000-07:00

I DUNO

hmm..i duno wats wrong wif me n all..i oso dun understand myself..ive change alot i guez...sumtyms i dun feel me nemore..i dun feel myself...i feel lyk im sum1 else..i oso dun understand wat i wrote...haiz....

im off todae...tmr too..duno wat to do...sit at home doin nuting...i was cleaning up ma room juz now..saw old pix...pix of me during sec sch...ite...how i miz ma lyf...th tym wher i nid nt to wory abt evriting...now i guez i hate being adult...too much responsibility...alot of ppl come n go in ur lyf...understand wats luv...old enuf to tink abt evriting...bt wen u tink abt it...it hurt alot...full of hurt...how i reali luv ma lyf laz tym...wif th ppl i luv..wen thers sum1 hu owayz ther for u...thru hapi n sad...frenz come n go...so i guez family stays...lyf is lyk a pit stop...ther r tyms wen ure hapi...n ther r tyms wen ure sad..

y i cry sey...mangkok bnar..mayb i juz sad n lonely...sheesh!!how pathetic i can b!!!!!!so so pathetic...hate myself...ishk!ma blog became dull n dull...i hv no lyf ppl..so sory lar...if u dun lyk it den dun read it lar...my lyf sux lar...so hu cares...i lead ma lyf...nt evribody hv a HAPI lyf..so apape lar eh...im a loner...real loner...hu wana b frenz wif loner...??raise up ur hand...u can b a pit stop to...nyahaha....cam kes langgar lari...wooohooo....

i miz u lyk crazy...evry min n evryday...
boy im so down wen ur luv nt ard..
i miz u...miz u...miz u...

2006-04-29T11:52:00.000-07:00

" The real life - version of love, with its ups and downs and general assurance of support and acceptance, will always be important and real. "

got tis frm aiin's blog..hahah...its nice...n i guez luv is all abt accept th person as th way he/she is...wen thers prob...thers owayz a solution to a prob...doesnt mean tat prob r for u to giv up...if u reali luv sum1...treasure th person most...dun juz go n 'be' wif sum1 juz bcoz of u lyk tat person lar..blablabla...den nanti break..ishk!relationship is for a long term...nt a short-term relationship!!pls lar eh...stop breaking girls/boys hart lar...if ure nt readi to commit wif sum1,den dun...its nt easy keh to mend hartbreakz...ive experience tat...n now im juz reali2 afraid of gettin hartbreakz...sis askd me y i dun hv bf now?gile kakak aku...she said im 20 n shld hv bf...mepek sak...bt i told her tat im afraid of gettin hartbreakz...tats y im afraid to move forward..all i do was stay..im nt a type of person hu falls for other guyz tat easily...n wen i luv sum1..reali hard to forget...sheesh...tis is col my luv...

END-IN-MIND

2006-04-29T11:29:00.000-07:00

no work todae...no lyf todae

okei...its payday!!nyahaha...my 1st pay...my 1st tym getting pay dgn keje keras...nyahahah...hey its my 1st tym working keh...cant help it...im bored todae...bored till death...bedek sey...

woke up jek tkde org pat umah...mum left me home alone w/o saying anyting...i tried to tok to her yest but all she did was juz nod at my ques...okei2...fine lar..suke ati dia lar eh...

ive done ma resume...bt i duno whether i wana giv it to ma sis coz she's th 1 yg nk carik kan keje lar...so loser-ish sey...ishk!

i miz miting sum1...hmmm...bt i bet tat person does nt miz me...he's having a great tym...den juz b hapi for him..thers no longer me...im nt needed now...so back off lar...or u can juz hide sumwher n wen he nid u again he'll find ya...how abt tat?i tink its a great idea...or y dun i hide in geoffrey?nyahahahah

my colleaguez askd me out todae...since all th bdk2 mly off nari...we wana go out n hang out...i tink im goin to join them...woohoo!!im totally hapi wen im wif them...bt sumtyms i feel so nt me sey...tk bley nk emo2...ngn drg mesti hapi2 jek...hahahah....

okei i started to tok crap...so suddenly i miz skol...i miz wearing skol uni...nyahahah...i miz ma frenz...i miz ma lessons...i miz sleep during lessons...i miz th gossip during lessons...i miz my crappy teachers...i miz ma drama-mama clazmatez...i miz evriting n evrybody...my graduation day is on 8th of jun...lagik lame sey....bt ingat kan graduation pat skol...skali pat ite tamp lar...suke lar tuh imah...nyahaah...!aku pon suke...eeee....mepek sey.....

k tkpe...check tis out...

wif th cherie...aku rase lar ni name dia...nyahah...da tk takot keh...cume mlm2 jek takot psl anti tgh kemas2 pat ofis...bende ni pat dlm ofis jek...de jek anti dia gerak...nyahahaha....kiut....im luvin it!

k nk g siap...nk klua uh!!!!bosan babe...adios!

2006-04-27T22:39:00.000-07:00

IM A LONER

juz got back frm work...my legs reali hurts lar...yest work full shift...todae work morning...tmr work full...die!even more stres lar sit at home...mummy dun wana tok to me...

as evribody noes tat ive been rejected to poly...so no poly tis yr!!how hapi i am...bluek..!!its all full...bloody FOOL..argh!!so wat im gona do for th whole yr waiting for poly nx yr?im stres up lar...mummy keep on nagging n ask me to work which can use ma cert...she kept on saying tat working at toysrus doesnt gain anyting..she said if she noe tat i wana work wif toysrus..she wldnt hv send me to ITE...yayayay...she expect me to work...a REAL job...omg..im totally nt ready wif all tis...argh!!stez..!!psl ni smue my mum doesnt wan to tok to me nemore...argh!!

i duno y i feel so crappy todae...i juz realize tat i lose my frenz...frenz come n go...frenz change...n if they change...u cant do niting bt to accept them...bt wat if ur fren doesnt appreciate u?i mean wen they nid u,u owayz ther bt wen u nid them,they r nt owayz ther..they said tat they hv their own lyfs...tats true...if u wana b fair wif all ur frenz...den b fair lar...dun treat me lyk tis lar..wat did i do wrong sia u treat me lyk tis?im nt ungkit evryting its juz tat wen u nid sum1,i owayz ther...nobody ask me to bt i wan to b ther bcoz of u...bt y u treat me diff?i noe lar tat u r nt me n i am nt u...bt wen i nid sum1 most...u nt ther...i feel lyk i hv nobody sia...evribody bz...bz...bz...now uve gone...hu's gona b ther for me wen i nid them most?hu's gona hear all th toking craps...sad toks...prob?hu's gona b ther for me thru happiness n sadness?

NOBODY

u lead ur own lyf...evribody hv their own lyf...bt 1 ting im still nt sure abt it is y u suddenly change?since sat i realize sumting goin on..u dun wana tell me...i noe tat u hv prob...cmon lar i noe u for 3yrs...n i tink bcoz of ur prob...u change ALOT...even towards me...n even urself...i dun understand u..coz u neva tell...bt becoz of ur 'prob' uve change n it reali2 effect our frenship...wher's all th hapi2 togeder?i noe it came for a moment onli...i noe tis day will come...now i feel sad wif ma probs n evriting...i feel so lonely sia...so so lonely...thers nobody to turn to...wif all th family memberz nt toking to me...i feel lyk im invisible at home sia...toking to tis blog oso duno y...lyk th blog can help me...sheet lar!y evriting happen now??feel so nt impo sia..wat if 1 day im nt here?will anybody miz me?will anybody look for me?will anybody concern abt me?i duno...sumtyms i feel lyk i wana go away...far far away frm evribody...i feel so so sick...so sick of ma lyf...its nt gettin any beta...im afraid tat i will giv up 1 day...bt i hope im nt...

pix taken during work...

jerry n cherie...hahah...i tink tats their name uh...hahahah...okei u noe how i hate so much to tis mascots..i still running keh...bt i tink ive overcome it abit...by taking tis...

tadaa...haha...we're supposed to work...bt i ask tis kind geoffrey to take pix wit me...i lyk lar...tats ma colleague,dian...hahaha...

th expression is all an act...deeply inside im nt hapi wif ma lyf...i feel lonely...n im all sad...so sad tat i duno how to b hapi...all i nid now is to cry to sleep...tats beta...

2006-04-26T00:50:00.000-07:00

UPSET

haiz...duno lar eh...i feel so so so upset lar...cant get to poly becoz its full...so nid to apply nx yr...for th tym being...i duno wat to do wif my lyf now...seriously duno...hv no planz...

hmmm...ppl change...evribody change...u cant expect a person to b th same...haiz...i miz sum1...so so so much...

no mood...adios...

2006-04-23T12:56:00.000-07:00

E.N.D

thers nobody to tok to....thers nobody to listen...all u nid to do is listen to urself...tok to urself...ppl hv their own lyf...their own prob...

now i gues its tym to move on..moooove....lyf has to move on rite?so wat ur application is unsuccessful?tk kn nk dok diam2 jek kan..sedih camne pon bley uat pe?u hv ur higher nitec rite?thers owayz other path for u to choose...mayb evriting is for ma own good...tankiu mum for keep on saying tkya skola...yippie...now ur daughter application to poly is unsuccessful...tis is all fate...wat for blaming others...blame urself for nt getting a GD RESULTS!!

regret2...tats how i feel now...im feeling so so so down...i hate being stupid..!y evriting happen to me sey...1st i lost sum1 i luv most...n now i cant go poly...haha...wat a hapi lyf i hv...tankiu very much...i noe tis day will come...tis yr full of down...down...down...down...i wana go out bt duno wher...duno wif hu...mayb go out alone...nobody's ther to turn to rite...

ok go!

2006-04-22T19:56:00.000-07:00

L.O.N.E.R

im supposed to go work todae bt i said to ma manager tat i cant go work becoz having stomach cramps...haha..tot of goin MiQ...bt i wana spend ma limited tym wif ma mummy dearest..she's been so so so cranky tis passd few dayz bcoz i wasnt at home lately...i woke up...wen to work...wen i reach hm...she oreadi sleep...haiz...she hardly see me at home...tats y i decided to go out wif her todae..!!i insist of eating dosai...hahah...i lyk lar...so mummy wana go mustafa centre...yikes!its wkend n i noe hv ALOT of batman...hahah...bt luckily we wen ther ard early afternoon....so batman blom klua agik...heheheh...i tink its ma 1st tym ther...ALOT sia cheap2 bags...i mean...they're branded bt cheap a dollar or two...hey..a dollar pon duit pe...bley beli apple pie ke...heheh..i reali wan to buy tis 1 adidas beg...mummy said tat if i get accepted to poly den she bought for me tat bag...kalo tk uat pe nk de beg besa2...heheheh

since we bring th two kidz...i decided to show ma mummy th plac i work...ma mum nt th kind of person hu takes public transport or go ard town kinda...she owayz wait for ma daddy den they usually took ma daddy bike or taxi...hahah...tis is lyf wen u hv an old parents...they will amused abt buses n trains...bkn cam tk penah nmpak...nanti dia ckp 'eh ni bus lalu sini...'hahah....so cute...ma mum said tat ma work plac reali2 far lar...of course...frm ct hall to suntec...jaoh babe...imagine if evriday pegi balik...kaki bley klua muscle...hahahah....

wen to ma work plac toysrus...bought for iz a set of cars...get discount lar...hahahah...i reali2 wana buy th glow in th dark rugby ball...suke keh...pat keje slalu main ngn tu bende....campak here n ther...ahahhaha....

now ma parents goin johor to ma cuzzen plac...ntah uh...so left me at home all alone...miting ma sis @8...wana buy jeans..mummy gave me money to buy 1 BUT ask me to pay her back wen i get ma pay...

i duno y lately wen im alone...i feel so emo-ish sey...hart broken will oways b th laz ting tat u wana feel..n tats how i feel...i duno y..being single n waiting 4 him 2 come back to me is such a fool ting 2 do..becoz he will neva come back..i duno if i regreted wasting my tym being a loner..but! its kindda shit sumtyms!!n th prob wif me,im scared 2 start wif a new r'ship...coz i dun wana get hurt n lose sum1 tat i really luv.. n i dun deny im being selfish at tyms 4 rejecting guys proposal to b their gurlfren...hahaha.... tats th prob!sumtyms i REALI do lyk sum1...reali am...wif his presence...n all...bt wen u stop n tink...u dun luv him...u juz LYK him...its a BIG diff...i wana luv sum1 n lyk him at th same tym...bt i dun feel th luv...u can get all excited over tat person bt u dun luv them...becoz i luv sum1 else...i dun deny tat i still luv him...reali...bt i began to accept th fact tat he luv sum1 else n it wasnt me...I NOE...bt hu can stop u frm luving sum1?nobody...unlez God...n yes...we're still gd frenz...reali cloz frenz...n i noe its only me hu still luv him n nt him luv me oso...I NOE...bt i juz dun wana lose him...i noe im being selfish...juz bcoz th gf nt here....sumtyms i feel lyk im a bitch sia...huhahuha wif sum1's bf?if it happens to me...i wldnt lyk it...sumtyms i get too confused if i put maself in her shoes...bt...i cant resist...haha...im reali being so bitchy sia...hmmm...u were so so so cloz to him bt yet so far far far away...tats y i feel lonely...i get emo easily wen i see couple ard...hahah...especially ppl in ma lyf...for example...nad...(i didnt mean to tok abt u..i reali luv th way u r rite now..wif is n all...i doesnt matter okei...let it b tat way lar kental...tkmo slow2 down...heheh)...she hv is now...go out evriday...being secured...u noe tat sum1 luv ya...th feelings of being luv by sum1...i USED to hv all tat...bt i lost it...n now i feel so damn pathetic lar...LOSER sia me...hmm...thers owayz ups n downs in ur lyf...juz hopping for th bez...

ok go!nk siap...miting ma sis later n her fiance coming to our plac to watch movies...woohooo...psp!psp!hahahha.....

LOVE SUM1 IN SILENCE IS TH BEST!
CHERISH EVRI MOMENT IN UR LYF...

ok go!

2006-04-20T22:19:00.000-07:00

RESULTS OUT!!!

sad...so sad...im sad...im disappointed wif ma result...reali2 sad...i got acc-B n aud-C!!i have a C!!its a big ting ley....eventho F-fail(repeat)...a C is a big deal...my gpa drop!!now its 2.475!!ma cca pt 0.2...argh!!stres lar...cam disappointed gitu...wat if i didnt get to poly...wat if??

hmmm...i gues juz pray hard lar tat i get to poly...if nt,pe bley buat kan...ni smue nasib..ive done ma bez...no used regret...lyk i said...I HATE AUDITING..!!sheeet!!

juz got back frm work...reali tired lar...been working n working...penat lar babe....cant wait for sat...ma off day..!!!been so so so busy...i didnt even hv tym to rest...didnt even hv tym to sit at home doing nuting...or even tok to ma parents...ma siblings....didnt even hv tym to mit up wif ma frenz....haiz....tis is col lyf huh...?

th more u get bz...th more lonely u feel...sumtyms i juz miz sum1...so so so much...its lyk....u feel so so lonely...evribody bz wif their luv ones...even ma babe nad...hmmm....wat to do...ppl hv their own lyf...i tot it takes tym...u noe...moving on...bt im nt moving i guez...i still n do luv sum1...i duno y...argh!!

yest was th most memorable day for me...i mean pat keje lar...

tis is ma colleague,dian...she n me kirekan same batch uh masok keje...beh bdk2 lame nih kes nk sabo uh...org smue da biz keje...its oready 11pm...the guyz grabbed dian n wrapped her...hahah...i was so shock uh...i laugh lyk mad...

cocoon dian...hahah...they wrapd her lyk tat...sabo sak drg...beh tk tentu psl aku pon kene....upset sungguh...ramai keh nk tolong wrapped aku....psl aku nk lari...n oso i kept on biting their hands...hahahha.....upset2...smpai kul 11.30...beh drg nye kong aja....drg letak dian pat 1 end store...aku pat lagik 1 end...beh drg siap2 nk balik...tros tutup lampu...manager aku pon skaki ngn drg...bley tolong wrapped kan nih...upset lar...sedih aku dibuatnye....kene bully....

hmmm...ma colleague smue okei2 uh...fun to b wif uh...kecoh lar drg....

hmmm....mon nk kene check poly plak...cam da tk smangat...kalo dpt,dpt uh...kalo tk,tk lar...keje lar fulltym...ishk!!im nt prepared!!!

2006-04-18T23:56:00.000-07:00

todae is ma off day!!

hahah...tired lar...but shiok jgk lar...bangon lmbt!!!hutang2 tido ku dibaya balik...hahaha...hutang budi tk dpt dibaya...hutang tido mesti tido...hahahah...

wen out wif ma cliquez todae...yippie...miz them lotx n lotx...i lyk...as usual tok lotx of pix...i lyk...hahaha...giler....tmr morning shift...mls nye...

fri result lar...mon muz check application for ma sp...takot lar...camne nih....argh!!!hahah...gile nye org...

fotos...fotos...

while waiting for yus...miz them all

th ppl i luv...wif me of coz...hahhaha...i lyk tis pix tat i took...

nk step teman anugerahku...hahah...ni teman setia anda....woohoo....

wif yus kecik...miz u babe...

th makcikx-makcikx kepoh...hahahahah.....

okei tats all...de lagik pat tasha's camera...nyahahah....

hmm....sumtyms i juz dun get it either...im bz wif ma lyf...bz bz....try to b bz...den i realize tat i STILL n DO miz sum1...n yet again i muz nt...haiz...wats luv sia?evribody said...'wah...u luv him so much ah...'hmm...am i?bt wat to do...ma luv nt return...juz luv myself n him..hahahah...

k nk sleep...woohooo.....

2006-04-13T22:19:00.000-07:00

tired...tired...tired...!!

ive been working since sunday...pnat gile lar...btol nye keje keras...kaki cam nk patah....but i realy2 hv fun ther...n th 'i dun wana grow up' song da jadi cam mangkok keh dgr...pening kpale..de lagu fav baru aku...

we're going to th zoo zoo zoo...how abt u u u?hahhahahaha...gilor....

working experience...hmm...fun uh...especially cashier uh...susa babe...kalo duit ilang,free labour lar nmpak nye...ishk!!

ive been working n working till i hv no tym to mit ma frenz...even ma family...i wen out of th houz wen they still in bed...n wen i reach hm...they're still in bed....ishk!!!kala org keje fulltym...

i bet evriibody miz me...hahahahha....ma blog pon da senyap...bz lar dey..bt i still didnt forget to took sum pix...hahahah....

ready to work...geoffrey on th wayyyyy...

tis is th view frm wher i stand...im doing th exit...wher nk wrap ke ape ke....

miz nana in action...

upset kan name ku....nurul kape....for20yrs ive been living....nobody col me nurul b4...ishk!!tk suke...

ma register...money in...money out...hahahhaa...master card/nets or cash sir?

btw,i heard tat sum of ma frenz da dpt surat dr poly...ade yg kene reject...ade yg accepted...ishk!!!takot lar...camne nih....?nk g sp!!!!kalo dpt,alhamdulillah...pray for me peepz...kalo tk dpt...aku sign on ngn geoffrey...hahahhaha

tats all for now peeps....till den..i'll update again wen im free...I LUV U ALL N MIZ U ALL....!!!

geoffrey goin to madagascar...!!

2006-04-08T22:33:00.000-07:00

MY LEG STILL HURTS..!!

todae wen for th 'kembara' ting...we reali hv fun lar todae...enjoy to th max nye...!!suke2..shiok lar...shld make tis ting again lar...bez kan dpt hangout2 ngn org2...we get bonded by th 'capteh' game...ALL th MiQ familyz playing tat capteh lar...frm th tk tahu main...smpai tahu main...chey!!FOCUS lar...hahahah...took lotx of pix lar...bt i didnt took th pix wen we played th capteh...i tink pat nad nye cam de uh...nad anti pass ye...

as usual these crazee ppl...in th morning...acap tunggu aku smpai da extinct...hahahha

th team bz discussing i-duno-wat-lar...haha...

th crazee ppl at th geylang station...belo tau...drg nyanyi2...evribody yg pat coffee shop tgk kite...hahahah

th bunch of ppl tat i LURVE to hangout wif...we can tok crap here n ther...i lyk...!!!

okei dokie...i nid to sleep early todae...tmr is ma 1st day of work...FULLSHIFT sumore...upset...jeffry...nyahahahah...th giraffe change th name to jeffrey...n tats me...hahahha...

i dun wana grow up..

im toys R us kidz...

hahahahha...cant wait for ma 1st day of work...confem tired...n hope tat i enjoyd it lar...n tkmo lar slenge2...upset...btw,ma imah dear da balik dr KL...miz her...actuali miz ALL th cliquez...bile lar nk klua....!!!!

wat date is tmr???argh!!stres n sedih....

2006-04-07T20:49:00.000-07:00

MY LEG HURTS!!

sheeshhh.....wen shopping todae...shop n shop till u drop...nyahahah...my bank da bocor...duit da nk merosot...!!!argh!!i bought beg..nyahahah....at last i bought ma miz29 beg!!tat beg ive been aiming since im in sec 3...da brape lame tuh?hmmm....4yrs?nyahahahh..den wen to buy my black longsleeve shirt..i nid it for work...muz wear either black or white...nyahahah....den i bought belt again...gatal sunggoh tangn nk beli...pinggang tuh satu...bkn nye dua tige...now i hv 3 belts...nyahahaha....den wat else i bought??hmmm...tats all..been hunting for slipon juz now..haha...

now ma legs hurt...

tues wen out wif ma babe-walking
wed wen for ma training-walking
thurs wen for training-walking
fri wen shopping wif yus n sar-walking

haiyo!!sakit dok kaki kuz...now i nid to rest lar..tmr nk g NLB kul 8!!pnat nye...i tink i wana sleep ther lar kalo da smpai...pnat lar...den sun working fullshift...argh!!i nid to rest...ive been sleeping lez than 10 hrs a day...yikes!!

took some fotos...hahahah....as usual...miznana oways take foto here n ther...i tink i wana become a photographer...bt ma frenz keep on telling me tat i wont take foto of th models...bt i will take pix of maself...hahahhaha......i tink so :p

th reunion...nyahahah...bt only yus n sar...tasha n imah cldnt make it...miz them loads!!

our tired legs....

miz nana wif her miz29 beg...i lurve ma beg...abg kdai tanye...'beli beg utk nk g skola..?'nyahah...tk uh utk prezen...pdhal...pdhal...

miz yus wif her pokerdot!!nyahahahah

miz sar mcm tersepit plak...nyahaha..wats wif pink sar??pink backgrd...pink clothes...nyahahah

miz nana wif th pink moon...hahahahah

th 3 mizzy shiok sendri...i lurve th lighting n th backgrd...n all tanx to ma k750i...i lyk....

okei...i lyk th way i dress todae...hahah..muz b confident...bluek!!k im tired...nid to sleep...

i lyk...

2 more dayz till..hmm...sunday eh...date ape tuh?

2006-04-06T21:57:00.000-07:00

todae is ma 2nd day of training...yippie!!da biz da training...so i will stat work soon...1st day of work is on sun...upset keh...keje FULLSHIFT dok....9.30am-11.15pm...mangkok!!!

hmm...th 2 days of training reali fun lar...i enjoyd it...especially ma fellow colleague...hu oso goin for th trining lar...kite smue same2 baru masok...fun lar...nasib smue tk act2 nye...especially our trainer,razali...very funny...

tired...tired...imagine lar toysrus pat suntec...jaoh tau dr mrt city hall nk walk to ther...feel lyk buying bicycle frm toysrus den cycle smpai mrt beh parksane...nyahaha...bt i wan th one hu wans it...so dun complaint lar...nyahahah...so im nt working for tmr n sat...tmr goin shopping wif ma cliques except imah...she wen to KL...jage diri baik2 uh....tasha mayb joining us...yg confem yus n sar....miz them lotx lar....so much to tok abt....tmr bley update ngn makcikx2 nih....

sat de MiQ tingy...i tink th name 'kembara' eh?ntah lar...its sumting lyk th amazing race lar...wher participants go 1 plac to another...shiok...hmm...pack..pack...pack...so pack schedule...den sun working...haahah....bz bz bz...lurve geting bz...

hmmm...i realized abt sumting...if u dun luv tat sum1...make sure u b HONEST to tat person..dun turn th stor to tat person...tapi pd hal da de yg menunggu utk dia...tats nt HONEST...n dun hurt ppls feeling lar...pls lar...its reali hurt u noe...wateva uve done...reali hurt till now...u can c im hapi...bt i feel wreck..!!i juz cant believe tat YOU do tat to me...u n all ur PROMISES..hmm...ntah lar...sedih aku dibuatnye...y u do tis to me?im so stupid waiting for u laz tym...so so stupid...bt wat can i do now...learn frm ur mistakez...

okei...i dun wan to get maself draggy abt tis...ni bende tk kan abiz...all i nid is to b hapi...hapi hapi hapi....

i dun wan to grow up...im toysRus kidz...!!!

addicted to tis sing sia...ok go...!!!nid to rest...tmr shopping tym!!!

i play it my way!!!

2006-04-04T22:36:00.000-07:00

hmmm...change a new skin again...hopefully new skins...new me too...been trying to b beta person...

btw,todae a hapi day for me...ive got a job...!!!im working at suntec TOYS R US!!!yippie...!!!for 2 yrs ive been applying ther...at last i get it...Alhamdulillah...mayb berkat ma mum let me work...wahahah...im starting tmr...yippie!!income...income...

1 of ma 5 wish been granted...nyahahah...here's all th 5...
(1)job at toys r us
(2)pas ma exams n acceptd to poly
(3)get psp
(4)bigger memory stick for ma hp
(5)if he's nt meant for me..help me forget him..if he is..dun make it to hard to hold on...

yippie...nid to sleep lar...tired sia 1 whole day...tanx babe for accompany me for interviu todae...we had brekkie at mac tis morn...hotcakes!!been addicted to it...nyahahah...den i followd her to apply at TIMES bookstore...here n ther...afta ma interviu n th smngat da dpt keje....me n nad mit up wif...erm...amad...we wen to ps n playd xbox...!!hmm...3bezfrenz goin out togeder...no comment...we're frenz rite now....

ma babe,nad...while on th fon...bebual ngn sape tuh...

tinking abt ma interviu later...haiz....

double me?

i wana go paris...can anybody bring me ther?

tis is how we look wen we play th game....

smangat lakan main game ni dua org...

3 frenz playing xbox....lyk old tymes....

okei2...im tired now...nid to sleep...tmr goin for ma 1st day of working...yippie!!!!

2006-04-03T21:11:00.000-07:00

reali lazy to edit th pix or edit th skins...

im dead...for now...

NOT-IN-SERVICE

haha...

gd bye...till we mit again...

2006-04-02T18:26:00.000-07:00

i didnt blog once...i blog twice todae...i blog b4 i wen out...i blog wen i reach hm...nobody's at home...parents balik kampong..sis working 12 hr shift...me...?sux owayz...

i duno ive been too emo todae...i cried non-stop...till i cant feel niting...i hd an endlez walking...i feel lyk th tym moving so slow...n i tink i hurt maself...bt i dun care...i juz dun feel niting...ma hart hurts...so much tat i cant feel...evriting was lyk a big slap on ma face.....ive neva cried so much lyk tis b4,,,ive neva been hurt till lyk tis...ive neva behave lyk tis b4...im feeling down...down...having low esteem...i feel lyk i wana sleep n dun wana wake up nemore...i feel lyk puting maself in abox n leave me ther...i dun feel lyk seeing th world...i feel down....so so down...i act as if nuting happens...bt in th end i breakdown....i cant take it...all th pain tat ive keeping smue nye nk klua....

i cant feel niting...seriously...n i duno y i wana blog abt it...mayb to express how i feel...bt rite now im too sad...i cant stop crying...wats wrong wif me?y im tis weak?tis is so nt me...i nid a shoulder to cry on...bt thers nobody here...mayb i shld juz go ncry at ma pillow...cry till i sleep...sleep is th bez way...sleep will let ur mind in peace....bt seriously...ive been tinking of dying twice todae..oh my...luckily my iman is still strong...i dun wana die for him...worthlez...

now i wana go n cry myself to sleep...dun feel lyk toking to anybody....coz i dun tink i wana tok..all i wan is to cry...cry n cry...hu wana tok to ppl lyk me?cry w/o toking?

LILMIZNANA been so so down...goin to put maself in a box now....

2006-04-02T14:11:00.000-07:00

JANNAH...JANNAH....

i owayz th plain JANNAH...jannah here...jannah ther...open ma eyes big..!!i dun feel so special...2yrs is all a waste of tym...wasting ma tym...wasting ma luv...wasting for giving unconditionally luv towards sum1...evriting is a waste...wat do u get in return...hartbreaks..!!hartbreaks here...hartbreaks ther....mend it urself...dia cam self-service gitu...

regret2...tats how i feel now...i regret noeing sum1 lyk u...i regret falling for u...i regret giv u evriting...bt wat can i do now...wats past is past...no used regret...tis is col lyf...smue org idop suke sakit kan ati org lain..whether in purpose or nt in purpose....they r all th same...they hurt u...den they leave...mcm kes langgar lari...

all u hv to do now is forget evriting...i mean evriting...1st step...ive deleted ALL his pix in ma hp...ive deleted ALL his pix in ma comp...ive put evriting tat belongs to him or tings tat reminds me of him into 1 box...put it at th far end corner of ma cupboard...evriting is full of hartbreaks...i tink wat ppl said is rite...if sum1 luv u,they wont hurt u...

n now i tot of changing ma blog name...bt nt now uh...i still hv no idea wat name...laz tym...ther were two...n now thers only 1...thers no longer 5rujan...thers jannah_fairuzan....c th space....thers no longer nanamad...sheeet!!alot of ma user name is nanamad..argh!!!

pretend tat ure juz sum1 hu doesnt mean alot to me...ure juz sum1 hu had juz passd by ma lyf...w/o any memories...we're juz frenz now...now i said to u AHMAD FAIRUZAN...im ur fren...so treat me lyk 1...dun treat me lyk shit...if u luv her so much...treat her nicely...dun treat her lyk th way u treat me...enuf of1 person getting all tis shit...

tankiu so much for showing me to th world i neva noe...tankiu for being ther wif me for u 2yrs....tankiu for being a nice guy for th 2yrs...now u can go ard telling ur gf tat i'll b one of ur 'non-special' gf...coz i wld lyk to b 1...rase diri ni tk layak plak jadi 1 of ur 'special' gf...i cldnt recol their names bt i noe thers 4 of them....tankiu tankiu tankiu....

we're plain frenz...cloz frenz...bezfrenz....wateva lar u wana treat me...i'll treat u th same way u treat me...

gd bye my luv ahmad fairuzan.....

kick off th old jannah....lets show to th world wat tis new jannah has become...im a strong gurl...ive been falling....n falling....n now its tym to stop falling...

2006-04-01T23:50:00.000-08:00

okei...i blog twice todae...nt including th midnite post....

im bored...reali reali bored...y did i spend ma wkends at home??argh!!i wana go out tmr uh...rimas babe dok umah...lagik byk pikiran dok umah...wen im alon i began to tink abt evriting...n it makes me sad...so sad...so sad...its a sad sad situation...hahhah

okei...my hand hurts...bt i still can type...nyahahah....

wat a BORING wkends...

btw,i manage to take pix of me in uni on th laz day of skol...hahah...no more ITE uniform...hope so...bluek!!

2006-04-01T19:50:00.000-08:00

im sick...i injured ma hand...bengkak babe...ishk!!spending ma saturday sitting at home...how boring can ma lyf b...cant type tat much...ma hand pain uh..i cant grip aniting...sakit babe...

i wana work lar...work so tat i will forget abt evriting....bz2..i nid to get bz...luckily i still hv trainings as usual tues n thurs...confem nye nk turon...or else i can die of boredom...

y do ppl nid partners?sumtyms i juz dun understand either...ure surrounded by ppl but yet u feel lonely...hmmm....

"what would hurt a gurl the most when she loses a boy that she really loves?"
2 c him close to u, bt yet so far away...

th smell of yest durianz still strong....rupe nye pat fridge de agik...upset bnar...evritym sumbody opens tat fridge...aku yg pening....

now so suddenly i miz goin skol plak...hmm...cpat2 lar skola ke work ke...apape lar...i cant slack ard sia....im bored.....

thers no longer two...only one...

pening lalat

2006-04-01T01:08:00.000-08:00

im having a headache...reali2 bad headache...ma sis bought durian n th whole houz smell of durianz...i hate durians soooo much...makes me wana puke n ma head as heavy as a stone...pls...stay away frm me...

juz now having headache n i tink now im having double headache...double th trouble..mepek2...

im glad tat im no longer a student in ITE Bishan...nyahahah...cam real jek...relek dulu...haven received ma cert yet....hopefully be graduated...

as for now...i dun hv a lyf...im juz sum1 hu nids to knock on th head to realize evriting...im nt blind but im blind....ma hart empty...empty tat sumtyms it hurts...empty tat sumtyms i duno if its still working or nt...i dun hv feelings....evriting been mixed up lyk rojak...bt rojak nicer den ma feelings..heh!im still moving on(duno if its col moving)...i move forward 1 step...den chickenout..i step back 2 steps....den i move again n i step back again...its on n on...tats how i move...ma legs r heavy...can sum1 drag ma legs...?sumtyms i juz hate guyz...(sori lar...no offence)they move on so fast w/o turning back...th whole tym they said they luv u...for onli 1 min...they said they dun...how they manage to do tat?how they move as fast as a wind?so guyz out ther...go n look n tink carefully....if u reali2 luv ur gurlfren...say to them tat u luv them n make sure u mean it...dun said it for th sake of saying it...yela...gf bf mesti ckp i luv u n so on...NO!its all th matters of each other harts...

hmm...i dun feel me...i feel lyk im sum1 else...sum1 hu hv mixd up character....for 1 sec ure sum1...then ure th other one...argh!confused...wher is me?wher is she?wher is she?hahah...gilor..hmm...i tink ma harts nt working...i cant feel niting...i cry wen i cry...i smile wen i smile...i didnt wan to cry...i didnt wan to smile...argh!!i nid doctor...giv me a specialist...i nid an operation immediately...i nid to remove ma brain n hart...n replaced it wif a new one..!ishk...or mayb sum1 shld come n knock ma head hard...den i'll forget abt evriting...forget abt ma past lyf....hmmm...i tink tats gd...hmmm...i hv 300 buckz...i shld pay sum1 to do tat....bt too bad lar...later tat sum1 kena tangkap ngn polis...hahahah....gilor nye org...

now ma headache became worst....sakit gile nye...tk terkate...pd hal da byk berkate2...haha...i nid panadol...or mayb i shld eat all th panadol in ma houz...hahhahh...gilor nye bdk...i nid to stay in hosp lar...tapi nk haizad jadi nurse aku bley tk...hahahahah....gilor nye bdk nih....

okei2 i oso duno wat i babbling abt....u...i wana play xbox again...nk main street fifa lar...shiok uh...i tink i will beat u up...im improving...nx tym ur turn to blanja me...btw,u still owe me prezen...frenz shld nt forget to wat they promise th other frenz...U agreed on tis frenship...i accept it coz i follow u...if u wan to b ma enemy..i will b ur enemy...hmmm...i wont do to ppl wat they dun wan other ppl to do to them...i dun care how much th prezen cost...expensive or none...its th tots tat counts...sumting memoriable...i dun nid expensive stuff...i juz nid...honesty...truly tat comes frm ur hart....nt other ppl forcing u...

okei i started to tok non-stop hits...ma head r heavy...ma eyes r heavy too....i shld go n hv a rest...let ma mind rest-in-peace...hahahah....end in mind...stay put...dun go away...

btw,its april fool...hmmm...mayb he askd me out was a trick...hahhaha

2006-03-30T00:50:00.000-08:00

hmm...i wana put tis pix up...ive juz edited sum of th pix...i wana change ma blog pix...bt lazy lar...so try2 th photoshop i hv...n manage to make these...susa ley...da lar tk pham camne nk pkai fotoshop...ni pon jadi lar

th pix of th 5 cliquez...i lyk th pix....

th pix of me wif th ppl i LUV most....LUV LUV LUV them lotx...especially..hahahahhahaha...

k nk sleep...nitey...

2006-03-30T00:33:00.000-08:00

im supposed to do ma acc....bt i didnt...todae...i wen to imah's plac...to study lar...laz min plan...reach her plac at 4...b4 tat i didnt do niting...juz watch th korean drama wif ma sis...she bought tat drama...n makes me addicted to it...hahahha....16 episodes...upset lor...mummy kept on nagging2...bt mak mane yg tk nag?hmm...she said i can watch movies till 2am bt if study,11pm da ngntok...hahahah....

tats col lyf huh...

cant wait for ma acc...yikes...den no more skol...tmr will b th laz day i step in ITE bishan...cam real eh...nanti nk amik cert masok jgk pe...hmm...belo lar...get to noe tat our result dpt on 21stapr...upset kan...beh poly smue bukak skol 17th apr?beh bile nk dpt skola?ishk...insyaAllah lar bley dpt...kalo tk pon...g keje sua...mak pon suke...hmmm....

k lar..i nid to sleep...ngntokz babe....

2006-03-28T23:44:00.000-08:00

haaha...blog twice todae...bored lar...to released some stres...nyahaahha....i wana post ma nephews pix...kiut babe...

th 'hai' pose frm iz....

i wish upon....hmmm....

if u c a ghost infront of u...u make face lyk tis...confem th ghost run...hahahha....

ni muke upset nye...hahhahah....cute rite dia....

hmm...he claims himself as mawi...hahah...bt i col him sawi...

he's ma sawi th bawi....luv him lotx....i'll take fotos of th others nephews...jadul n jazli...laterz....

one down..one to go

2006-03-28T20:20:00.000-08:00

nyahahah...audit down...acc to go...hahah...th paper sux lar...as usual...all th tings tat u memorize didnt come out n tings tat u dun memorize come out....tats col examz paper...i manage to ask ma frenz wats th ans..hehe...so bad...

yest nite study lyk crazee...afta watching 'dia'...baru lar nk stat blajar...manage to study till 2am...hahahah...

tis is how i study yest...so strez lar...memorize here n ther...calculate here n ther...bt i reali lurve practical lar....

ma audit txbk...hahah...yest strez lar blaja...jadi amik2 gamba lar...haahah....hate audit...u can c th cover conteng sane sini...biase lar...cikgu aja...tangan pon gatal....u dun wana c th inside...much more worse...hahahhahahah

ma water bottle...peace!!hahah....im sick...so cant stop drinking plain water...nyahahahha

afta th paper...we nid to clear up our lockers....tadaaaaa....

th locker has been cleared..!!!yippie...i throw all th books inside....thers no books lar...juz sampah sarap n noting important in ma locker...luckily for 2 yrs i used tis locker...neva experience any lipas or cicak or ape binatang lar...semot pon tkde okei...hahaha...walaupon dlm dia berselerak nk mati..hahahh....

now i cant wait for thurs...den no more skol for me....for th tym being lar...hmmm...wat if im nt accepted to poly?wat im gona do?work?hmm...full-time working...tat sound so scary lar...

btw,yest amad's grandfather passd away...so al-fatihah to arwah nye...i noe he's abit upset lar...u noe...1 of ur family memberz gone...hmmm...i feel sad too...okei lar coz laz tym i used to very cloz to tat side of th family....hmm...but i kinda miz him too...okei enuf...dun nid to blab abt it...

cant wait till thurs...wana go partyyyyyyyyy!!!!!

btw,all th pix taken by ma new k750i...i lurve ma fon...

we'll go everywhere together;

we'll leave 0ur f00tpriintts 0n the sandd after sunriise;

we'll sit together and gaze at the starrrs afterr sunsett;

we'll dream 0f each 0ther at middniight;

we'll make mistakes t0gether and learnn;

we'll 0verrc0me all the 0bstacles iin 0ur wayy;

we'll d0 everyythiing t0getherr;

i d0nt wanna l0se y0uu;

i can't aff0rdd t0 l0se y0uu;

deep iinside mahh hearrtt;

2006-03-27T20:40:00.000-08:00

okei....1 more day till exam...18 more hours to go....n rite now...ive juz memorize 6 chaps...3 more chaps to go...ma brain cramp gile...duno wher i can fit all th 9 chaps in ma head...bluek!!!

ive been bz studying...nyahaha...woke up at 10 todae...stat to memorize ma audit...theory sux lar...hate it so much...im beta wif practical...haiyo...upset sunggoh...i wana finis ma exam cpat2...!!argh!!i nid a break...nyahahaha....nevamind...3 more dayz till graduation...wooohooo.....

2006-03-26T15:50:00.000-08:00

haha...again im supposed to b studying...bt im still lazy to study lar...especially audit....gilor uh...kate nk masok poly...ishk...da byk kali da msok poly...nyahahah....

mepek2....tis flu getting worse...kalo mlm lagik upset...camnk ter-sempot pon ade....ishk...ishk...yest syirah's 10th beday...todae de celebration at home...so i better study b4 ptg...anti aku jgk yg kene g beli kek....upset lar...

cam stres plak lakan....audit blom blaja...acc pon blom stat...argh!!no!!!!hahah...crazee monkey lar aku nih...bla bla bla....

2 more dayz for ma audit paper....help!!anybody hu luv to hapal2 bley tolong bljr kan?den amik kan exam..??nyahahah...da jadi belo...belo...belo...cant wait till thurs...afta tat...NO MORE SKOL...nyahahah...can go out evritym...hahaha...anybody to ask me out...??tapi mesti blanje uh....hahahhaahhah....adios...

till we mit again....
th fotos of all th 5 cliquez hu turns 20 tis yr...gona miz ya cliquez...

fairuz natasha's beday...14 january 2006...surprised her at esplanade...

yusmah's beday...18th february 2006...surprised her at her houz pat bukit batokz....

nuruljannah's beday...5th march 2006...THEY surprised me at ma houz tamps....

sarina's beday...8th march 2006...we surprised her under her void deck pat bedokz..den celebrate her beday at baladi's....sheesha gurlz....

rahimah's beday...22nd march 2006...surprised her at lash's plac....nyahahah...our laz cliquez turns 20 too...

yippie!!!evribody's turning 20...!!hmmm..nt evribody...ther's still sum1 hu haven turn 20...hehehe....k ppl...i nid to cont study....okei go!!

2006-03-24T14:48:00.000-08:00

okei im sick...help...im sick...exams in 4 days n now im sick...ive running nose...yikes....dun run away...help....

S-I-C-K

2006-03-23T21:58:00.000-08:00

hahah...i can still blog...ma exam 5 more dayz...i haven study ma audit...as in reali2 memories evriting...my acc still sux...argh!!im goin crazy lar...i wana pas ma exam n get ma butt to poly....cant imagine me goin work sia afta ITE...yikes...im nt readi...

btw,ive bought k750i...i lyk lar...nice photos...gd fons...i lyk sony ericsson...

btw,yest imah's beday...HAPI BEDAY IMAH...

which means tat all th 5 cliquez hd turn 20!!yeah...i lyk...we're all young adults...nyahahhah...feel so old sia....btw,me n ma gatal hand..tk tahu nk g blaja...so gatal2 lar edit2 pix...i edited all our beday pix....i wana upload it...but tis stoopid blogger i dunno y cant upload pix...gilor...

hmmm....u're nt lyk tis laz tym...wen we're togeder...i noe u as sum1 hu hv an ambition...but afta wat happen to us...uve change...alot...frm a person hu hv ambition to sum1 hu hv nuting in lyf...u as if u go on dayz by dayz w/o tinking abt ur future...evribody wan a beta lyf...uve change alot...reali alot...sumtyms i dun c YOU...wat happen to u?is it ma fault u become lyk tis?was it me hu cause all tis?do u tink tat ure hapi laz tym?do u tink tat lyf laz tym was beta then now?or now much more beta?i juz hope for th bez....i hope tat tis is wat u wan...n may u b granted wif happiness n lead a gd lyf ahead...lyk wat ur parents said...we all support u..im juz sum1 hu's hapi for u in wateva tings u do...im sori if i so-col lecture u abt wat happen...i noe i hv no rite...bt i hope tat u make a wise decision...dun regret it later...all th bez in lyf wif ur luv ones...luv ya owayz....

2006-03-21T22:05:00.000-08:00

LiL MiZ nAnA rEcEivEd hEr 300 BuCkz...

nyahahah...im rich...cam real jek...pd hal stakat 300 jek...mangkok btol lar...wen to ITE tamp to collect it...th ceremony sux lar...boring nkmati...

btw,tmr brekkie wif th whole claz of IQQ at mac...nyahhha....i lyk...den no more skol for me...thurs n fri nt goin...den nx tues exam...yikes....takot tk...blom blaja babe...

okei go...i nid to study again...

LIL MIZ NANA NID TO PAS HER EXAM...okei go...

2006-03-19T22:40:00.000-08:00

my hart is a mess of scars n tears

Sumtyms I hv given pieces of my hart away,n th other person hasn't returned a piece of his hart 2 me. These r th mpty gouges,giving luv is taking a chance. Altho these gouges r painful, they stay open, reminding me of th luv I hv 4 these ppl 2,n I hope sumday they may return n fill th space I hv waiting...

got tis frm nad...frm sumwher mane ntah...so ppl out ther...luv th ppl ard u..treasure it....

2006-03-19T14:53:00.000-08:00

i cant stand...
i cant sit...
i cant walk...
i cant do niting....all tanx to...
ma menses cramp..!!!

yikes!!bad mood th whole day...kesian bdk2 kene mara jek ngan cikgu nih...tis cramp killin me...now i cant even sit still...perot cam nk cabot beh letak tepi sak...i wonder how to giv birth sey..menses jek da tk bley tahan...ishk!!da lar aku nye 2 in 1...stomach cramp+mouth ulcer..!!yikes...!!hate it...

yey!tmr goin to buy k750i...nyahahah...tanx mummy...lup2 ya...btw,ma fon trade in 180 dokz...byk jgk...nt bad huh z520i..?okei2...now ma stomach killing me...luckily menses now...kalo tym da nk exam tk ke mangkok aku...

now i nid to eat panadol...den take warm towel lar to put on ma stomach...btw,i hv a stoopid story to share...

tis morning...as i woke up frm sleep...yela nk g ngaja...ngntok gile nye...so ma eyes half open nk g mandi lar...beh dlm toilet mate masih tk bley bukak...den i took ma toothbrush to brush ma teeth...den i didnt realize tat i took ma facial wash to brush ma teeth...!!yikes...da beros keh...beh half way cam....asal ni obat gigi tk pedas...den bukak mate.."mak!!!nana tergosok gigi ngn facial wash!!!"nyahahhaha...klaka keh...dr ngntok tros terbeliak mate...upset sunggoh...den beros gigi dua kali keh pkai obat gigi....yucks!!so moral of th story..jgn tido lmbt...nanti bangon gosok gigi pkai facial wash...eeeeeee.....

"jannah..ni amad...amad...ni jannah.."-nad @ buz goin to escape....hmmmmm.....

2006-03-19T00:54:00.000-08:00

i did study...hahah....to relesed stress...i col ma fren,tasha n askd her out...hahah....

tis 2 single gurl...haha...tasha act single onli...pd hal matair pat umah ngah patah kaki...nyahahah...sori mr his...we wen to town lar...hahah....da lamer gile nye tk g town....im nt much of a town goin gurl...mls lar nk g...skali skale bley uh...jgn lar slalu...da lar ramai org...beh bende pat sane itu,itu jek...bkn nye dia tuka kalo aku dtg besok...so once in awhile bley lar...if im in th mood to look here n ther...nyahahah....we wen to watch date movie..yela...kite dua nih mane lar de sape2 nk tgk wyg...mr his da lar tk bley klua...beh aku...hmmm...apape lar...den we juz stroll here n ther to kill th tym coz we're miting sar at bedok kul8...

th 2 gurlz day out...

th 2 camwhores...nyahahhah...i lyk...

monday ma tchr beday...so we make for here a suprise beday bash...its a pot-luck tingy...so ma cliquez doing th goody bag...hahahha...afta buying tings...kite g lar wrap2 brg2 tu smue...sat at a park infront of library...crack jokes...laugh here n ther cam bdk tk betol...wif me keep on singing...'toma' song...nyahahhah...

now tired...n tmr de ngaja...ishk...nid to sleep lar...btw ive received th claz foto...so here it goes...
th formal pix of claz IQQ '06..im on th 2nd row 3rd left...

informal pix part 1...sitting row...2nd on th left....

informal part 2..me n ma cliquez on th 1st row...attention seeker sey kite...tapi tkpe...lawa...de gamba extra lagik pat atas muke kite...suke2...i lyk lar...

haiz...skol gona end soon...miz evribody lar....

nitey nite..hapi 3 yrs noeing u...19 mar 2003,,,1st tym we met at escape....hmmmph...

2006-03-17T23:51:00.000-08:00

okei...im supposed to b studying lar...bt i didnt study th whole day...i wen out at 5 wif ma sis n her fiance...we wen to expo...for th halal tingy...since im so hungry lar...plz keh...dun go ther lar...sooo boring sia...u'll get bored afta lez than 1/2 an hr...damn bored...so tis 3 monkeyz juz tok2 abt ppl...hahahah....

im addicted to th psp...yikes...i wana buy it...but came to tink of it...its beta for me to get hp lar...so k750i...here i come....

3 crazee monkeyz..doing nuting n juz tok crap...

me wif th psp...hmmm...mayb i dun nid psp...i get to play it wen i wen out wif ma sis...hahah...i nid hp...ma hp sod gile...dia nye on off nye angin da stat...

k lar...i nid to sleep...nid to woke up in th morning to study...nyahahah...

10 more dayz for ma audit paper...12 more dayz for ma account paper....tkmo main2 bak kate nad...hahahhah

2006-03-17T14:27:00.000-08:00

haha...change skins...i lyk...didnt wen for skol todae...lyk i said todae lesson will b boring lar...self-study...so might as well i stay at home...nyahaha...i woke up damn late uh...11 dok...tat was th tym drg smue abiz lesson okei...nyahahah....shiok lar tdo..lyk i owayz tell ppl tat i owayz nt enuf sleep....

ive finish ma audit notes!!!yippie!!!i manage to finish it yest nite...now nid to do acc plak...ishk!!nobody's home...mum followed sis to ICA building to take syirah's pasport...so left me all alone at home...cant go out till tis org yg nk dtg check ma water supply...dad complaind to th PUB lar...coz our water bill reaches 300+...can u imagine...3-room flat air smpai 300+...upset kan...org buat org kawin pon bill air tk naik camtuh...so th technician's coming over to check whether ther's any leaking or their meter spoilt...but till now batang idong pon tkde...hmm....

im hungry...mummy left her 20-teen yr old gurl at home w/o cooking any food...haiz...th laz meal i had was th nasi lemak at ITE simei...tats ma breakie/lunch/dinner...yest didnt ate th whole day...all i did was sleep den wen to training...so u noe how hungry i am during training....

yeye!!claz foto da dpt...i'll post here laterz...suke keh....awwww...im gona miz tis ITE bishan..

th skol amphitheatre...tis stairs is th plac wher we assemble evry morning...n tmpt yg de lorong tu student hub...tats th plac wher students chill2 watch movie...

tis is th skol songs tat u nid to sing evri monday morn...

th bridge tat joins th buildings...

de tangge pusing2 smpai mabok...hahahah...small rite ma skol...?

th study corner...th plac wher me n ma cliquez luv to hang out...

ma locker...1857...hahah...lurve th no. 5...u dun wana look wats inside it...hahah....ma frenz said tat ma locker kalo de tikus pon nt surprised...hahahahh...

pictures for ma skols...haha...gona miz it...eventho its boring n skol sux...nyahahah...hu doesnt say skol sux...okei...i shld b studying lar...nt sitting here n do nuting...yikes...

exams in 1 wk!!!

okei...i have 3 bangles frm 3 diff frenz....th purple beads is for ma cliquez...our super power bangle..hahah...th orange...hmmm....me n him hv it...th silver..frm ma babe nad,beday prezzie frm her..n she hv 1 too...so u c...its owayz hard to decide which one to wear...haiz...but..frenz owayz th most impo apart frm ma family..so ya...i do treasure frenship...

2006-03-16T22:11:00.000-08:00

i wen training todae...hahah...me n sar as usual...th crazy n relek one corner peepz...tired lar...i tink for so long didnt wen for training...so im sux..!!

hmm...todae was th most boring day...tasha didnt came to skol todae...n im totally lost at skol...nt lost...i mean...i didnt do niting in claz...except for playing ma word search...hahah...soo addict to tat...hmm....didnt charge ma mp3 for sooo long....so tadi ngah shiok dgr2 skali 'LOW BATTERY'...tk ke mangkok...hahahah....den i forgot to bring ma wallet to skol...ishk!!da tue makin pelupe...hahahah...beh g skola cam buang mase gitu...skg smue tgh sebok buat itu ini pat skol...beh aku cam chill tgk sane sini....im lost...

exams in 1 wk....i havent stat ma audit....ma acc!!!argh!!i nid to focus...bt im juz lost...im still at tis lost & found counter...nobody to take me....bluek!

tmr i plan nt to go to skol...due to only 2 hrs in claz...n i noe i wont do niting in claz coz i tend to tok here n ther...at home...less tok...hahahah...muz get ma butt to poly lar...ishk!!bile mau blaja nih...btw,ma claz IQQ wont 4th plac in napfa...hahah...kinda proud lar...ma 1st tym taking napfa n we won 4th...hahah..mayb becoz i contribute a tiny part too...hahahah...imah gona get her 80buckz for gold award...im gona get ma 300 on tues...yippie!!!psp here i come....

shit!!i miz sum1....bluek...tk impo...lets move on...lets back to th moon!!!

remember i told ya tat i bought for ma cliquez bangle...so here it is...wen th powers combined...i am captain planet...go planet...!!hahhaha

2006-03-15T22:05:00.000-08:00

so long havent update...been too busy lar...either bz...or i make maself bz...or im juz lazy to b bz...hahaha....mepek2...

i juz gt back frm miting ma babe,nad...we wen to watch urs,mine&ours...hahah...nice story...damn funny lar...i luv watching family shows...family bonding...lurve it...especially having BIG family...yeah...i wana hv a BIG family...ma family includes th anak sdarez n ipars...thers total of 12...so cheaper by th dozen...so u can imagine wen evribody's at ma houz...keycoh nk mati...n u can imagine me shouting here n ther ask them to stop running ard...hahahah....i wana hv 5 kidz..!!insyaAllah...brangan byk ye...hmmm....i wana marry at th age of 25...bt...till now...hmm...God noes hu's ma husband gona b...hmmm....wat for u plan wen evriting will nt happen...

as usual...ma bezfren gave me LATE beday prezzie...wif a budget beday card...can u imagine...she tore th exercise bk nye paper...but gurl...so swit of u to write all those tings...n yeah...tanx alot babe...eventho we're goin our separate ways...we're still bff...hahaa....cam budak2...bezfrenz foreva...hahahah...we wen shopping juz now...crazee here n ther...try baju here n ther...kalo bley satu kdai nk beli...bt yeah babe...tanx for th prezzie....n tanx for evriting lar....

okei...exams in 1 wk tym...i havent reali study yet...ma notes still half way thru...yikes!!im dead man...reali dead...now muz plan carefully wat i wana do...i mean...i cant stop having fun wif ppls ard...i mean...can u shut out ur lyf n juz study till examz...?yikes...!!i probably die by then...haiz...u can hv fun bt yet muz study too...poly poly...here i come...muz put ma butt in ther...ishk!!no matter wat!!chey...insyaAllah....pray for me ppl...

haha...im so obsessed wif code red's song....oldskol babe...hahah....borrowed tasha's cd..keep on listen again n again th song 'wat wld u do, if?'hahah...okei2...american nex top model todae!!yippie..!!bt i still cant accept th fact tat nicole won okei...i mean...nic is much much more better keh...haiz...apape lar...

hey goes...

wat would u do if
i told u i luv u
wat would u do
would u b here tmr
wat would u say
wuld u juz walkaway....

squeezeeee in evribody...lurve ya cliquez soo muchos...gona miz ya all...

2006-03-13T00:28:00.000-08:00

okei...ive said tat im bored...so im doing sumting for ma cliquez...they pester2 me for pix...so here it goes...

gurlz day out to baladi for sheesha-ing...luv ya cliquez...i miz sum1...hahah...hope he's okei...

2006-03-12T23:50:00.000-08:00

okei2...i post 2 tyms todae...im juz bored lar...damn bored...bored till death...im back frm moon..n now im having a boring lyf...evriting seems to b empty...i duno y...ive been hapi...but duno y todae i feel sad...i oso duno y...i guez i miz sum1...

too much to ask for...i remember nad said to me...'understand tat u hv no right nor power over him..dun expect impossible tings..ure juz setting urself 4 more hartbreak..'haiz...hartbreak?wat is hartbreak?i cant even feel it...hahah...im going crazy lar...crazy over sum1...

i tot i said tat i giv up....hmmm...yeah...i do...i mean...im trying...trying to giv up?is ther such ting?hahahah...ntah lar...I STILL DO LUV HIM...nyahaha....stooopid jannah....he's hapi now rite?bluek!he LUV her...he DUN LUV u nemore...damn!i do miz him lar...met him laz fri...eventho it was lyk onli for an hour...im reali hapi...hapi...hapi....

okei2...its tym to move on....so lets get back to th moon...!!

nyahahah...tmr skol at 9!!yippie...futhermore tmr bdk2 skola tk skol....kosong skit bas...kalo uat sebok jek...nyahahahah....cant wait for skol...new look...new me?hahah..hope so...

2006-03-12T15:49:00.000-08:00

tired...n yeah...i did hv fun yest...escape didnt change tat much...no much diff lar...i did wen to BK pat escape...hahah...brings out old memories....hahaha....!!luving it...but...

okei2...let me get tis ting straight...wen i said im letting him go...means tat i will try ma bezto least down th 'luv' feelings towards him...its nt tat im nt goin to tok to him or at all...i reali wan him to b ma fren...b by my side....but i noe its selfish n too much...but tats th way i wan it to be..i dun care wat others wana say abt it...coz all i noe is i appreciate being his fren...tats wat we started of rite?i hv noting against u...he might lose his bezfren-nad..but i dun wan him to lose me..coz i noe him better than anybody else...im nt being selfish or stoopid...u ppl juz duno me...he does....

frenz come n go...but i'll neva go away.....

2006-03-10T21:44:00.000-08:00

sorie lar peepz...didnt hv th mood to update pix n all....stooopid blogger lar...ive update a long long entry...skali dia not responding....chet!!
okei lar...i duno y i still dun hv any mood...still wana go to th moon...hv ma own world...w/o ppl come in ma lyf...im juz tired...reali2 tired...tired of evriting...i guez...its tym to say tat ENUF IS ENUF...do wateva u wan...eventho its too hurt to bear...i cant do niting...cume pandai2 jek lar pujuk diri sendri...i dun feel special...i dun feel lyk being appreciated...i noe tat im owayz ther wen u nid me...now evribody hates u...even ma bezfren...now ive least down toking abt u...i shld juz keep it to myself...coz ppl so sick abt it...n oso i dun wan anybody to hate u...so juz keep to urself..n sorie peepz if i owayz grumpy at tyms...coz im healing frm all tis pain...im glad tat i hv these ppl in ma lyf...imah,tasha,sar,yus n oso ma babe nad...they owayz ther for me wen im down..eventho they sumtyms scold2 me for nt moving on...im sorie peepz...it juz tat it takes tym for me to heal...n for me to move on..reali hard to forget sum1 i luv most...but i noe...he has change...he's no longer ahmad i noe...n i guez th ahmad i noe doesnt exist nimore..he became fairuzan now...sum1 i duno...sum1 hu luv sum1 else...ahmad i noe is in th past...fairuzan is th future...cant bring back th past rite?hmmm...tats col lyf...now its tym to let him go...

we're juz frenz...n yeah...now its tym for me to treasure evri moment in ma lyf wif ma clique...we're goin on our separate ways soon...n i juz wana let u ppl noe tat u gurlz rox...u gurlz was th bez among all...we laugh togeder...we cried togeder...u gurlz being th shoulder for me to cry on...w/o faild to giv advice...they make me strong...u gurlz being th sunshine to lighten up ma lyf...n i tank God tat He gave me u gurlz...He put u gurlz in ma lyf...afta 20 yrs of living...i find it u gurlz th bez...tankiu n luv ya cliquez soooo muchos!!!

btw im goin escape tmr...yippie!!actuali nt looking forward to go ther...i duno...i juz feel cam sedih gitu...tk excited langsong...

th plac nih was th 1st tym i met amad..."jannah...ni amad....amad...ni jannah..."-nad...haish...i hate wen to places tat bring out th memories....but u cant avoid it rite?s'pore so small lar...th memories still fresh sey in ma mind...we wen to escape on th 19th march...hahah...i still remember th date eventho its 3 yrs back...hmmm...nx mth is th mth of april....april...april...april fool...a fool mth...to fall in luv...chet..!!but i still lyk it...tats th most unforgettable tym...wher all th pokerdot gugor...haha...miz those dayz...ishk!i tot ive said tat ive cloz th book...ishk!!

btw i cut ma hair damn short lar...mummy said tat i look lyk 5 yr old kid...hahah...20 turns 5 tis mth...hahahahha....he hate it...bt so wat...wat for i wana keep ma hair long..i noe u lyk it...bt too bad...ure nt mine...go ask ur gurlfren to keep her damn long hair...cheT!wat wrong wif me?y i sound so bitchy?bluek...wateva lar keh...we're juz frenz...itz been a year im holding it on...n now i declare myself tat i gave up on u...im tired..n too hurt...i noe u didnt ask me too..but i appreciate u ~~once~~ twice came to ma lyf...but now ure gone...forever...evriting ive been hoping for juz a waste of tym...i gave up on u as u gave up on me...till we mit again sumday...if we meant for each other...we will b togeder...ure reali th 1st guy tat makes me luv u so much...we reali2 hv alot of gd memories...i will erase all th hatred n keep all th gd ones...its tym to put evriting in a box n keep it in ma hart...take care my luv....im off to th moon now....

Goodbye My Lover

2006-03-07T23:44:00.000-08:00

now

i feel non-special sia for th pas 2 yrs...

i feel lyk i was nobody for th pas 2 yrs...

i feel lyk im nuting for th pas 2 yrs...

ma hart hurts so much tat i cant hardly breathe...

y do i fall in luv at th 1st plac...y do i luv him...y he came to my lyf...y am i so stupid...i hate being me...i feel lost sia now...i try to find myself again...but i failed...im lost...now i shld b put on th lost & found plac...left ther w/o nobody to take me...arg....!!!

i wana stay at moon uh...so tat i cld stay away frm evribody...hmmm....shld make a rocket...i nid to go to th mooooon!!!!!!

2006-03-05T23:33:00.000-08:00

i turn 20 todae...

n tmr i will turn a yr n a day older...hahaha....crap....

reali had so much fun juz now...it started of wif me being soo sooo crappy...didnt hv th mood at all sia todae...wif me being so stress up wif th kidz...drg nari super doper active...mangkok sak...den as i reached home...my mum ask me to go n change clothes den aru bley makan....masok jek bilik...ma kiut2 cliquez in ma room...SURPRIZE!!!!!hhahahaha....shock!!but still sleepy...haha...no reaction...!!mangkok lar...

tanx gurlz for coming here n celebrate ma beday wif me..!!didnt expect tat u gurlz gona come here...ingatkan ajak klua ke ape...hahah..prasan...so much prezziee....i lyk...nt evriday u turn a yr older okei...

now no longer teenz...its t-y...hahaha...tua nye aku...but i still look young n kiut...hahaha....okei2...toook some pix...as usual...our gile camera...hahahah....check it out...

hapi beday to me...th cake was yummy keh....

th kiut cliquez...mrs UN...mrs HIS...erm...mrs-cant-tell-ya...mrs AD n mrs AL....luv ya gurlz soooo much!!!

n nt to forget...th guyz...hahah....they're taken peepz...hahahahah...tat is mr AL-th orange...n mr AD-th black...ermmm...he's nt black...he's fair....hahaha....

th lovely prezzie frm ma kiut cliquez....a bling bling belt frm mr&mrs AL...a white wallet frm mr&mrs HIS...n a kiut flower2 yg bley gantong pat dpan pintu frm mr&mrs AD...mrs UN didnt bring ma prezzie....tmr ya?hahah....

hahah...th power ranger couple..apape lar drg nih...

im 20 now...no longer teenz...im a young adult...hahah...ape mau nk step kakak2 nih smue...tink matured..nt act matured...hahah...step mane jek bebual...but ya...i tink i feel diff todae...i guez th whole body changing after a yr...i feel diff...hahah...i tink ma brain works diff now...hahaha...mepek2...i guez im toking more n more crappy...hahahah....i didnt get to celebrate ma beday wif ma babe,nad...sorie babe...but yest we did hv fun rite?

okei2..i didnt even hv th chance to celebrate ma 20 wif ma erm.....bezfren...mr AH..he's working todae...n i noe u ppl mad at him...im nt siding him or wat....its juz tat he's working lar todae....i noe lar...of all day he work todae...but so wat...he's nt ma mine hu tink abt ma beday n all...he didnt even hv an official wish me hapi beday...didnt sing for me...didnt even ask me out...okei...im asking too much...we're juz frenz rite?hmmm....gasak lar...celebrating beday tis yr diff...i mean being single lar...he celebrate wif me twice n its th most unforgetable lar...hmmm...i shld get used to all tis...im hapi rite todae...??bt i did cry todae...hahah....duno y...cry coz can strez gile lar...abt evriting..dun wana tok abt it here....as i juz wan to keep wateva tings ive been tinking to myself...ppl sick of hearing ma probs lar...hahah....naik berbulu telinga drg...hahha!!gilor!...

n nt to forget....

ma beday card frm ma lovely niece n nephew....tanx..!!!

okei...i wld lyk to tank ppl hu wish me...

sar...imah...yus...tasha...nad...nazmi..huda....aan....noya...nisa...ma students...n oso amad...erm...did i miz out anybody?erm....ntah eh...if i did...sorie...tanx muchos muchos for th prezzie...th wishes...luv u ppl sooo much....

LiL MiZ nAnA turn tweteenz

2006-03-04T23:30:00.000-08:00

haha...aloha..
i had fun yest n todae...yest wen for bridge camp...de farewell party...we had fun...the junior reali make th good effort for tis camp...well done!
farewell dia cam sedih lar...makes me miz ITE sak...2 yrs was a great great experience sak...n yest at th farewell makes me miz ma cliquez so so so so much...26 more dayz till graduation...evribody goin separate ways...gona miz them so so much...they're th bez bezfrenz eva..im glad tat i met them...they're nt those typical minah2 mepek lar..we all DUN act matured lar...ni smue bdk2 skg nk step mane nye kakak2..pd hal...pd hal sey...ishk!they make me wana go skol evriday...haha...wif them ard...ma sad lyf wont b tat bad...there's owayz laughing here n ther...laughter makes u look young...hhaha....okei2....juz now afta breakfast troz blah..since they said tat th camp was reali meant for th juniors...so ape lagik...smlm tk dpt tido...reach home ard 11...den tros pengsan...tot of goin MiQ miting...but too tired lar...
den nad woke me up...dia ajak klua...so siap2..mit up wif th geng...ther's omar,acap n fadz...haha....we wen sheesha-ing...again...hahah...bt tis tym we wen to ermm..i forgot th name..bt its reali across th road frm sultan mosque...th place was so damn nice lar...n comfy too...cliquez!!we shld go ther sak....i lyk lar...
okei lar...now im damn tired lar...tmr de ngaja agik...bored keh...da lar mummy tk kasi klua afta ngaja...sedih skali...

during th farewell party...th crazee bunch of bridge leaderz senior...!!awww....gona miz u peepz..!!!

th IQQ bridge leaderz!!!we reali had so much fun togeder...!!i tink kite nye claz paling byk bridge leader lakan...hahahah

okei...th swap identities..hahah...tis gurl is janice..ppl tinks tat she's malay...n ppl tink tat im chinese...wahahahah...janice n jannah...shld swap identities...look at ma shirt...1986...tat was th yr i was born...i lyk lar...

th MiQ geng hu wen for sheesha-ing...hahaha..hv sooo much fun sak...hahaha...

okei...now im tired lar...nid to rest...hmmm....i did hv fun b4 i end ma 19 yrs..haha...1/2 an hr more i'll turning twenteen!!haha...hmmm....but i miz spending ma tym wif sum1...i guez its diff huh celebrate beday tis yr...i mean...w/o him...argh!!i miz him so badly....okei enuf!!chet!!!

gd bye 19..!!helloooo 20!!

2006-03-02T21:43:00.000-08:00

okei...tired...tired...juz got back frm rugby...de match ngn tjc....btw,their field sux lar...botak here n ther..buat pantat ku sakit jek jatoh....ishk...ma elbow pedih gile sey.....tapi nasib baik tkde pape...da lame tk turon training...im much more sucker than ever...tkpe...but im having fun lar...bez jgak...all ma prob smue ilang jek...i manage to take a foto of our team for todae...

okei...th front guy abit tk senonoh lar...mentang2 badan nye lawa nk show off...ishk!!

tmr im goin to camp ppl...b back on sat...k now im damn sleepy...nid to snuggle2 wif ma bantal...ngantok...zZzZzZzZzZ.....

26more dayz to examz...yikes...!!3 more dayz im growing a year older...yikes!!no more teens...neva mind...im turning twenteenz...

2006-03-01T18:02:00.000-08:00

erm...juz duno y...i tink th hapi moment will come to th end...i duno...i hv th feelings...soon no longer nid me...soon i was nobody...now exams over...sure he'll spend moz of th tym wif sum1 else...hmmm....wat to do...dun expect too much.....den i shld juz b prepared for all tis...argh!!okei...cant stop tinking abt him 24/7...yeah i noe ppl...i shld forget abt him as he hv forgotten abt me...i guez being fwf(frenz wif feelings...haha...nad n me create tis)reali hard lar...argh!!

okei2...nad's results was gd...she th damn hapi lar...nus babe...if nt...tp pon de....hahah..go nad go.....okei...for so long didnt do th ques2 ting...i lyk...bored lar...

1. What is the best nickname that u everhad?
~baNANA...JANNAH...sum1 col me plain jannah....hmmm
2. Do you think suicide is the best way?
~> dun tink so...if lyk tat i wont enjoy lyf as much as other ppl do...
4. Are you in love with someone at the moment?
~> hmm..yeah...deeply..but....
5. Are you missing someone at the moment?
~> owayz miz him....end-in-mind
6. Would you die for the one you love?
~> no...den how to luv tat sum1 if u oreadi die?
7. Do you think love hurts?
~> yeah...it hurts even more seeing sum1 u luv,luv sum1 else...
8. Whats the best thing about love?
~> abt caring...luving...each other
9. Whats the worst thing about love?
~> it hurts lar..!!!
10. Will you wait for someone you love?
~> wat do u tink im doin now?
11. What song that best describes your love life at this moment?
~> neva been replaced
12. Do you wanna get married?
~> of course...i wana get married at th age of 25...but...hahah
14. Have you talked to the person you love on the phone?
~> of coz...will miz him lar if didnt tok to him...but i noe ppl...
15. Do you keep memories or try to forget them?
~> keep it....cherish evri moment....
16. Is love always on your side or the oppositeway?
~>i duno...i gues now luv sux...
17. Are you straight/gay/lesbian/bisexual?
~> straight of coz...if im a lesbi...i wld hv fallen for ma girlfrenz....
18. Have u ever loved someone on thesame sex?
~> mum,sis,ma gurlfrenz...luv them lotx...
19. Do you have a gay/lesbian/bisexualfriend?
~> haha...yeah...
20. Are you sick of love?
~> dun tink so
21. Are you sick of questions on love?
~> haha..i enjoy it..bluek!
22. What are you going to do tomorrow?
~> skol...rugby...sleep..
23. What do u want so badly right now?
~> b wif him??
24. Do you think money is everything?
~> of coz...tkde duit mangkok siot...
25. What song are you listening rightnow?
~> here w/o u...
26. Whats the last thing u downloaded?
~> convert to 3gp file...i wana put 'th video' inside ma hp..!!!
27. How much do you love music?
~> luv so much but nt as much as i luv him...hahahah...lame sak
28. Do you play an instrument?
~> hope so....
30. What movie did you last watch?
~> cheaper by th dozen 2....wif sum1....
32. Whats the last word you said to your loved ones?
~> i'll owayz b here if u nid me...n owayz luv you...hmmm.....

bored bored bored...nuting to do...goin to camp tis fri till sat...tmr de frenly match..hmmm...i duno y i miz sum1 so badly...okei2...stop...hahahahha

come to tink abt it...i wana to take back th gift i wanted so badly...which is....hmmm...some of u noe...u see....y i wan tat gift wen tat gift wasnt even mine afterall...hmm...but i tink tats th bestest gift sey...ohh well...new names for ma kiut2 cliquez...imah as mrs AL...tasha as mrs HIS...yus as mrs AD...sar as mrs UN..hahah...me?nah...tk bley bilang....wahahahahahah.....

forgot to write here..yest was ma long lozt fren beday...kak marni....hapi 21st beday kak..!!n todae is imah's bro beday...i forgot how old...haha....abg favourite aku...tat was wat imah said...hahaha....

2006-02-28T19:42:00.000-08:00

application da anta...hohoho!!

so now juz wait n hope for th bez...insyaAllah lar...plz lar bley...takot plak...tkpe2....

todae didnt do niting much....juz chill2 here n ther...me n ma cliquez spend our precious tym togeder...another 1 more mth to go...den all of us wen to separate ways...erm...gona miz them so so so much...so swit...i bought for them a so-col cam frenship band...haha...kiut keh...pdhal bkn frenship band...its a bangle comes along wif a watch...lawa tau..bluek!

gona miz them so much...for 2 yrs noeing them...they're th bez...i remember ma 1st day of skol...cmon lar...being accepted in ITE...i was very upset lar...yela..of all stories ppl said tat ITE ini lar...ITE itu lar...but its all within ourself lar...its all abt hu u mix wif...wif a gd company...u'll b gd...wif bad...erm...no comment...ma 4 frenz reali reali th bez...hope tat we will b frenz forever...dgn imah nk kawin panggil aku nyanyi...okei mrs AL?hahah...in th future...wif sar kanciong-ness...hope tat kanciongness of her will least down abit...haha...bez tau dpt clazmate cam dia...th clown in our cliquez...de je bende2 slenge dia buat...jgn risau sar...its nt tat kite nk kutok2 or make fun of ya...its juz tat u brighten up our day...hahah...kite kutok2 ko pon to ask u to b beta...hahah!!luv ya sar...!!hmmm...da miz drg lar...sgt2...krg...amcm?afta exam kite g holz?batam?hahahaha...

mayb we shld make another sleep over...bt tis tym,yus muz come oso...baru shiok..!!gona miz them...anti smue tkmo action2 eh...tkmo bz2 eh...we try to mit up 2wks once ke...to update n go craziness...hahahah....amcm???

i tink im sick...tis headache dr tadi pagi sak tk ilang2...pening kpale ku...mcm de batu dudok...n cam nk demam lar...

muacks!!frm us..!!afta our flea market...at student hub...hahahahah

2006-02-27T21:53:00.000-08:00

entry requirement for SP biz muz b more than 2.0..!!yippie!!

laz min application...skg aru nk decide nk letak ape 1st,2nd n 3rd choice...hahah...ive decided to take banking n finance as ma 1st choice...ive look thru th sub they learn..n i kinda lyk it...coz thers no.!!yeehah!n ther's maths too..i lyk...acc cam susa lakan...i mean...im kinda sux at acc...haha...so 2nd choice acc n 3rd choice is admin...haha...frickle minded sak....now i tot of puting adm on ma 2nd choice...hmmm....confused lar....

okei2..hope tat i can get to poly...tats wat i wan all tis while...n im gona find work...bley cope ke?hmm...ntah eh...

nuting much lar todae...basically,enjoying ma 1mth left at ma skol...hmm...gona miz tat skol lar...graduation ceremony is on jun-july ther...hahah...me,imah n yus goin to th same skol...bt imah reali wana hv her sports n welness...hope tat dia dpt lar...tat was wat she wan lar...so mayb left me n yus...hope tat same claz...hahah...cam takot plak nk take a so-col new step...hmmm....

u cant sleep w/o toking to sum1...u get worried abt sum1...u miz tat person...n u luv tat person so much...u wan th bez for him...bt he's nt urs...sumtyms u wish tat sum1 didnt came to our lyf...sumtyms u feel tat u wana turn back tym wher evriting's orite...hmmm...

mangkok2...tmr de s&w..yippie...suke2...eh nk aiskim ben n jerry uh...nk mkn pat kdai dia uh...de lembu2...suke2...

i reali2 lyk ma spec...hahahah

2006-02-26T21:49:00.000-08:00

woke up early todae for ma claz...cam real nye early jek...pd hal juz 15mins early...heh!due to nk siap..yela...kan afta ngaja nk g org kawin..so muz put sum makeup to cover th nice lipz i hv...hahah...i wore all white todae...white shirt wif white skirt n oso white tudong...hahaha....beh bdk2 nih ckp..."tchr,u look lyk ghost..."hahahh!!yeah...!!im goin to hunt u all for nt hafaling th nama2 malaikat...wooooo!!!

okei...so swit of him...eventho he woke up late...he took taxi all th way to tamp juz to mit me 1st...heh!yela...frm his home de straight buz pe nk g pasir ris...hmmm...so we wen to th wedding togeder...wif ma cliquez lar of coz...hmmm...i hate to admit tis...but i reali reali reali miz him lotx sey...eventho its only 3 hrs we spend togeder...erm...yela...wif ma cliquez oso...i reali miz him lotx..haiz...hmmm...cherish evri moment...sumtyms i duno y i wana cherish it...coz noeing he hv sum1 else..bluek!hurts me alot....tinking abt it makes ma hart hurt...as if sum1 stabbing it slowly...argh!brutal killer....SHE viewed me on frenster...n it makes her pix at ma rite end corner...can sum1 view ma profile...so tat her view will nt b ther again...hartache dokz!!

okei...back to th wedding...it was fun...ma clazmates wen to th wedding at th same tym...n u can c tat th other makcix2 kept on ooking at us...atas bwh dokz...cmon uh....stop being an observance lar u ppl...stop butting in our lyf as me n ma cliquez didnt even butt in ur lyfs...bluek!!den we wen to bedok reservoir...he didnt follow lar...coz tmr he hv his maths test...gd luck u..i noe u can do it..so swit of him...he followed us till bedok reservoir n took 22 frm ther...pd hal pat umah erni de 53...i guez he wana spend tym wif me...hahahah...dream on jannah...okei2....n lash insists of asking amad to take buz frm pasir ris...hahah...n i didnt giv him 'th look'...bt he said 'sori jannah'...hahah...embarass moment...but tanx to mr AL..yeah...i do wana spend tym wif him....hahahh....okei...spending tym wif him in th buz...reminds me of us laz tym...bt tis tym...we didnt tok tat much...im juz enjoying his presence ther...'baby i luv u n i neva let u go...'hahah...

okei2...we visit mr hisyam...hahah....he hv 3 kiut2 cats...reali cute...th fur realy2 lebat lar...gemok gile keh...geram gile..!!n one of th cat col imah..hahah...i wonder y...n tis mrs AL getting all excited wif tat cat...hahha....took some pix...enjoy lar eh....

th luvly cliquez...at ernie's sis wedding...

miz nana wif miz sar...wat a jaw dropping pix wif a sad look i hv...hahah...i lyk ma spec lar....

me wif th miz-smlm-carik-kasot...haha...she managed to get th slipperz she wans...nice gurl...den mrs hisyam's wana visit mr hisyam...so all th mr-mrs-miz cliquez wen to visit him too...heheh...

2 of mr hisyam's cat...hahah...so kiut...n th white one is imah....n th brown is conet?hahah...coco lar...coco pops!

me wif th cutey kitty cat...geram lar...mak!!nana nk kucing!!!hahaha...nk kene buno ngn mak aku...hamster tk terjage...kucing nk jage...ishk!!tk bley...asthma babe...ni pon da stat asthma sey afta snuggling wif th cats...hahahaha

laz but nt least..~~mr n mrs amad~~...mr amad wif MIZ nana...feel lyk couple keh g wedding...hahah...no lar..he's ma BEZFREN lar...

hmmm...i stil lup him lar...ishk!!jannah...he hv sum1 new....bluek!!okei2...tmr he hv maths test...gd luck u...i noe u can do it...ure a smart guy...do study lar u keh...take care.....

exactly 1 more wk till ma 20th beday...yikez!!!

2006-02-25T21:36:00.000-08:00

saturday..hmmm....having ma boring saturday...for soooo long tk angon lmbat...nari lar hari yg paling bez..!!i woke up at 12..hahah!!!mummy's nt home..g holiday agik...daddy's work...sis's wen rugby comp...haha...den me?jadi lar mangkok tingkat pat umah...hahaha!!!watch dvd th whole day...1st watch narnia(yela...cont..lom abiz tgk lar)...den watch charlie's angels...den watch hari poter...hahahah...mangkok keh..!!

den ma kiut fren tasha msg me n ask me to accompany her to tamp mall...she wana buy shoez/slipparz for tmr wedding tat we're goin..haha...smngat kan kite!!search n search...tk dpt2...mangkok!

den reach home..aru lar anak yg baik nih...kelam kabot do th houz chores...wash th dishes...sidai baju....n oso lipat baju...wahahah!!!yeah ppl!!me lipat baju!!!heheheh...took me for ages to finis h whole bakol...hahahah

i lyk ma new spec lar...cool...n look gd...n more cuter...wahahahahah....

n yeah imah...i noe im getting richer...alhamdulillah...nyahaha...but u noe...th skol...confem duit lmbat nye nk kasi...yeeehah!!tkley2...tat money mesti utk skol...hmmm.....still confused...but hell wif evriting...i enjoy ma mangkok lyf....lyk i said b4...laz tym i took th stairs...reach th highest floor den suddenly fall...n now tired to climb back...so i juz sit down n wait for th lift...which will neva reach th 1st floor...so juz sit n enjoy th waiting...hahhaha....

i noe...ma spec nice...i look more cuter...hahah!!!bluek!!cant wait for tmr...c ya cliquez orite...

ma beday nx sun..hehe..getting older...yikes!!i wan.....hmmm....

2006-02-24T18:06:00.000-08:00

okei...i forgot to update abt tis...tis is imah's fon...yest i accidently rosakkan hp dia...beh dia majok keh...uwek!!!sori imah...im making a public apology..haha....public kape...sorie2 imah...hp ko pon da mintak kene beli baru...heheheheeh...

SORIE!I FEEL BAD..

nasib baik nari hp dia da okei after dia godeh2....hehehheh

2006-02-24T16:32:00.000-08:00

okei...for sooo long tk online...hahah...been down lately...now i guez in th process of recovery...hmmm....i tink i hv 2 org in me....ahahah...i can b reali2 hapi in front of evribody....but wen im alone....im reali2 sad...hmmm....mls lar keh...

btw,yest i wen for ma rugby training...hahah!!soooo long tk g...reali2 miz th rugger mates...release strez sey main rugby...ilang skit beban2 dlm otak...bt u noe..u cant owayz run away frm ur prob...hmmm....

tk saba lar nk sunday!!goin to ernie's sis wedding wif ma cliquez...!!!hahahah..cant wait...mayb we gona visit hisyam uh...dia kan sakit...

k nuting much to update...im freaking bored...

lyf aint easy....
makin besa makin byk masalah...dulu kecik2 carik masalah...skg nih...ishk!

2006-02-22T20:26:00.000-08:00

i duno y i still feel sad...i duno y i still feel upset...i duno y i still feel lyk crying...i juz duno...im confused..im upset..sum1 said to me...'how long i wana wait?'...'cant u c they're hapi?'...'wat if TH DAY wont come?'...'wat if HE'LL neva change?'...

argh!!i duno...tinking abt evriting...makes me wana cry so so so so badly...bt i duno...its nt th tym to break down n all...i still can tolerate all tis...but..am i stoopid?he has change...alot...he's no longer HIM i noe 2yrs back...he's no longer HIM hu luv me..he luv sum1 else now..he HV sum1 else now...n they're hapi...THEY ARE HAPI...cmon lar...open ur eyes..!!stop having feelings for him...let him go...let him go as far away as he wan to..u cant hv him...remember tat...he hv sum1 else...i noe i miz him...i noe i wan him back...bt wat can i do?u nid 2 hands to clap rite?

argh!!y u came to our lyf..?y u took him away frm me?n y u leave?how i wish i dun hv any feelings...y do i fall for u?y?y we hv alot of memories togeder?how u move on?how u forget abt me?how u forget abt us?can u help me?i wana let u go...bt i cant..i duno y i still holding on for u..i noe i shldnt do tat...can u help me?

hmmm....for th pasd few dayz...been so crappy...i duno y...im hapi infront of evribody...bt deep inside...hmmm...only God noes how i feel...inside i feel wreck..uselez...n hopelez...a guy i luv most...doesnt feel th same...again...

Oh Allah...plz...plz...help me...!!i dun wana lose him...plz dun take away ppl i luv...plz......

btw,we won for our entre...th chocz...bez creative..haha...biase lar...hahah....keje2 laz min...well-done cliquez!!we've done our bez...n we get money!!haha!!80 bucks to share...!!yeeehah!!luv ya cliquez lots...!!

th chocz!!

tankiu to th ppl in action...

sar..th topping maker...th helper for designing th stall...th helper for buying ice-cream...

tasha...th runner..th designing of th stall too....

imah...th runner too...th printing of our tags...th store-keeper for all our stuffs...

yus...th cashier...th designer of our stall...she design th stall name...'chocz'...

laz but nt least...jannah..make th ice-cream...handle all finance...yeehah!!

tankiu for ur all support...for making our biznes run well...we noe we all kiut...hahahahh!!!!!

okei...tis is a 3 in 1 entry...

feeling down again...nt only abt luv lyf...bt oso education...mum still insist of me nt to continue skol...she said buat ape blaja pandai2 tapi tk pandai...hmmm...so wat to do...poly application in th hand...still duno wat to do..wen mum said no...can u nt follow?i duno...now feeling down...i guez lyf's in a mess now rite?tankiu for ruining ma lyf ppl..a dream is only a dream..evriting i wishes for can neva come true...tats lyf huh?

okei now i hate my lyf so so bad...

2006-02-21T21:48:00.000-08:00

hmm...been tinking alot lately...ive been hapi for th paz few dayz...my day complete evritym b4 sleep i heard his voice...bt im afraid tat th hapinez will come to an end again..coz i noe tis hapinez will b for a while...n im cherish it evri moment...but....

he's hapi wif sum1...y i interfere?y im still here?i noe we're frenz...bt i shldnt hv feelings for ma fren..its hard...coz i still luv him lotx..!n its hard to 2 b frenz...im nt complaining...i noe i wana b his fren bcoz tats th only way for me to b near him n i was th wan hu choose to b here...bt being near doesnt make me hapi either...i duno...but if im hapi,den i'll b sad again in th end..sad becoz he's nt mine...he's sum1 else nye...for th whole damn a yr ive neva giv up on him...ive havent move on..im still standing here cam mangkok...lyk waiting for snow at spore...i juz duno wen was th day tat i will broke down n cry reali hard n said tat enuf of evriting..!!i duno...they're hapi..i can c tat...bt y muz i b in their way?i dun wana hurt anybody...i dun wana take sum1 frm sum1's lyf...coz i dun wan tat to happen to me...n i shldnt make it to other ppl...evriting driving me mad..i duno how long i cld take all tis?i bet ppls ard me so sick abt tis...wen will it b enuf is enuf?i cant bear to lose him...n i oso cant bear to handle all tis...but alhamdulillah...i tink im still strong enuf...but y at th 1st plac we fall in luv?i noe falling in luv wif u makes me hapi...for th paz 2 yrs...uve been a very important person in ma lyf...u giv me th luv tat ive neva had...u make me forget of sum1 whom i luv laz tym...u make me fall for u frm head to toe...u make me luv u more each day passes by...den u left me...being wif u on our 2nd 1st date was th most memorable day in ma lyf...u brighten up ma day again...u make me alive again(okei lar...i noe God was th one hu make me alive...heheh...)u make me fall for u again...after u chose sum1 else...i opened ma arms to b wif u again...den u left me again bcoz of me....u gave up on me afta 6mth later...n for 1 yr...ive neva giv up on u...for th pas 2 yrs we've been togeder...ive neva giv up on u...i noe i make miztakes...i owayz make miztakes...i cant pleased anybody....for th paz 3 yrs...2 ppl came to ur lyf...while none came to mine...y?becoz ive neva open up to anybody...ma harts open for u...bt wen its nt open...th hart feel all th pain...th pain is too much...too much to bear..n im juz waiting for th day tat ma hart opens back...im hapi wif ppls ard me...nad..imah...tasha...sar...yus....ma family...bt i still feel lonely...im grateful to hv them in ma lyf...im grateful to hv him in ma lyf too...bt now he's hapi...he's hapi wif sum1 else...it wasnt me nemore hu makes him hapi...y i wana destroy sum1's hapinez?i shld b hapi for him rite?yeah...i tink i shld...tats wat frenz r for..ure nt special fren...ure juz a plain fren...fren hu can come n go..fren hu shld nt hv feelings for ur other fren...hmmm...yeah..im hapi for ya...

....but i do stil luv u n hope tat u luv me too.....

Lil miz nana...emo entry afta woke up frm afternoon nap...hahaha

2006-02-20T23:06:00.000-08:00

damn stres todae...nt todae...juz now...juz realized tat i havent do ma cdp...!!mangkok2...beh kelam kabot lar carik2 info psl keje2...n gues wat work i choose??haha...prison warden(inspired by ma sis),firefighter(inspired by ma sis's fiance),cnb n ica...hahaha...all th home team...nyahaha....hey...tats th easiest to find on th net keh psl job qualifications...insya-Allah dpt ke...hahahhaha...

okei2...damn bored todae..afta skol followed tasha to ITE mac...to print her result slip...she lost it...i guez how much it cost?10 bucks keh...mahal nk mati...ishk!!den reachd home jek..ma mum ajak tgk narnia...we hd th dvd...hahah...watch it half way...den tertido...hahah...boring lar...i wonder y sum1 lyk sooo much abt tis narnia....hmmm....beh tersada jek...ma mum yg paling smangat tgh tgk..dia yg crite kan wats th story abt...hahahha...den siap2...wen to kedai cemin mate to make new spec...hahah....mummy dun allow me to wear contacts...afta wat happen now...so ape lagik...nk stop kan pkai contacts kene li spec baru lar...hahaha...ma spec since sec 4 keh...so its for lyk 4yrs oreadi...hahah...degrees pon da makin naik...upset...den ma astig more higher...hahahha....upset....i lyk ma new spec...fri gona take it...cant wait....

hmmm....i miz sum1 so badly....wat to do.........

2006-02-19T22:25:00.000-08:00

hmm...didnt do niting todae...as usual evri sunday morning wen to ngaja...den wen home...sleep...hahah...parents wen to johor again...haha....

k im damn bored lar now...ive received ma acc test..alhamdullillah...walaupon th paper was kinda hard to me..i did quite well uh...yahoo!!!hmmm....now wat i wana do??

hmmm....sumtyms i juz dun understand ma lyf...im surrounded by ppl...but yet i still feel lonely..i juz duno wat i wan...i juz duno y im still here?y i didnt move...?y im still standing straight here?i tot tat evribody askd me to move on?y im nt moving?can anybody help me?im still th same jannah..hu sumtyms cry at nite abt wat hd happens in ma lyf..im juz lost..i juz nid sum1 hu can take me away...away frm all tis...i wana b hapi...i luv to c ppl ard me...they're all in luv..how abt me?damn!i sound so pathetic...ntah lar eh...wateva it is...im juz hoping for th bez...

can i hv ma luv back?plz dun take him away frm me.....

I don't wanna feel,

the way that i do,

I just wanna be,

right here with you,

I don't wanna see,

see us apart,

I just wanna say it straight from my heart,

I miss you.....

What would it take,

for you to see,

To make you understand,

that i'll always believe,

You and i,

can make it through,

And i still know,

I can't get over you,

2006-02-18T22:21:00.000-08:00

okei...i had a great day yest..haha..yest plan was a success!!yippie..!!tanx to th ppl...sar,tasha,imah,lash n oso adi...afta sooo many planz...evriting was a success...tanx to yus's mum n sis too...haha...shiok okei...lets recol back wat ive done yest...

mit up wif tis 2 kiut gurlz of mine....tasha n sar...to survey for cakes...mit th reST at bukit batok...bwh blk yus...hhaha...kite nk surprise kan yus...its her beday todae...but we celebrate it yest..yela...todae smue org bz lar...heheh...we ordered piza...haha...den tis 3 gurlz waitD for lash n imah n adi...so lepak2 lar pat bwh blk dia...haha...wait n wait till near 9..

tis is th beday gurl...yus...haha...she was so so so so so shockd...haha...she cried okei...n we hd a party kecik2 pat umah dia...yeeehah!i lyk...she was so touch okei...hmmm...we're ur reali2 swit frenz...hahah!we bla frm her plac ard 10+...den waited for th stooopid bus express...tk smpai2 end up naik train...i reachd home nearly to 1 lar...ish!mummy nt th very hapi...bt im th very hapi...sum1 accompanied me...toking on th fon till i reachd ma comfy bed...tanx u..!eventho ure nt ther...ure ther to accompany me hm...but i tink if ure ther,it will b much fun...hmmm...nevamind...

todae i hd ma MiQ ting...juz reach hm...very th tired lar...hd fun todae...wif th MiQ peeps...hahah...k lar...nk tgk tv!!pnat lar...tmr de ngaja agik...

HAPI 20TH BEDAY YUS!!!

2006-02-17T16:13:00.000-08:00

check tis out...13 signs ure in luv...haha...belo keh...bace jgn tk bace..all kinda true...to me lar...hahah

13. When your on the phone with them late at night den they hang up but you miss them already when it was just five minutes ago...

12. You read their texts over and over again...

11. You walk really slow when you're with them...

10. You feel shy whenever you're with them...

9. When you think about them, your heart beats faster and faster...

8. You smile when you hear their voice...

7. When you look at them, you can't see the other people around you... all you see is him...

6. You start listening to slow songs, while thinking of them...

5. They become all you think about...

4. You get high just from their scent...

3. You realize that you're always smiling to yourself when you think about them...

2. You would do anything for them...

1. While reading this, there was one person on your mind the whole time...

okei...im supposed to siap2 by now...tk saba nye nk celebrate yus beday...i still haven buy for her prezzie keh...upset sungguh...so i tink im goin out early b4 mit th rest of ma cliquez...hmm...li prezen sorg2 uh nih...betol nye mangkok...ishk..as u all noe..im nt th type of person hu go window shop sorg2...boring kan...anti tkde org nk bebual...ishk!!k lar...got to siap2..yippie...!!!update to ya laterz...

2006-02-16T22:03:00.000-08:00

LIPAS!!

haha...duno y i wana blog abt tis...haha...i was having ma 'boring' term...ngah bored2 lek2 pat dpan comp...playd ma stooopid game...haha...den i heard ma anak sdarez shout...

syirah:makchu!!lipas!!..

i tot she juz memain jek...as u noe...my comp reali beside ma room door...den i saw a lipas ngah terbang nk masok ma room keh...th lipas frm ma mum's room which is acros mine...

beh as th lipas tgh terbang nk masok ma room...i quickly slam ma door....den i shout2 inside ma room to askd for help...n th hero came...ma daddy...hahah...den killed th lipas...beh
nk step kacau2..kate nk campak lar lipas tuh...argh!!i hate lipas...especially yg bley terbang...argh!!!!

k...skg pat suria de cite hantooo....eee....takot lar....

2006-02-16T19:30:00.000-08:00

i did study yest...i study too much tat i nearly forgot wat ive studied..den juz now th test..i didnt do well...i duno how to do...i cant get ma balance sheet balance...argh!getting frustrated by it...i juz hand in ma paper w/o finis it..argh!!stres...!!ppl can get balance here n ther...but i cant..!!!

hmm...ive done ma bez...wats pas is pas...so i juz nid to study more for ma upcoming examz..which is in 1 mth tym...den graduate...yippie!!

th foto taking wif ma claz was fun...eventho kejap jek...we th very keycoh uh...haha...lagik2 tym informal..th 2nd pix..ma cliquez conquer th front row...kite 5 jek keh pat depan...hahaha...i lyk...but i tink i look stoooopid...hahahah....

okei...juz woke up frm sleep...i hd a nap twice todae...baya hutang2 tido smlm...haha...todae reach hm early...ard 11+...den sleep...den mit tasha...wen to tm...den reach hm sleep again...hahaha...shioook keh!!

skg da tido ptg cam bengong plak...haha...cam pnatlar...cant wait for tmr n th nex day...n th nex day...n th nex...n th nex...hahaha...apape lar...da belo.......

Baby i love you and i'll never let u go
but if i have to boi i think that you should noe
all the love we made
can never be erased
and i promise you that you wil never be replaced.

lil miz nana wants.........hmmm

2006-02-15T18:39:00.000-08:00

okei..im supposed to study for ma acc..CA TMR TAU!!beh blom blaja...TIDAK!!!!
hahah...bored again..tgh tunggu nk mlm jek...jadi bley blaja...ptg2 blaja tk smngat...n guez wat...todae i didnt hv ma peaceful afternoon nap...chet!1st-ma anak sdarez keep on disturbing ma beautifoool sleep...n 2nd-evribody seems lyk coling me...here n ther...but 3rd-he col...so ma mate frm th ngntok...jadi terbeliak...hahah...tkde lar...lagik pon tk bagoz tido ptg2...camreal...hahahah.....

okei...abit excited for tmr...claz foto!!!yippie!!den tmr g skol stakat de test pagi...den foto taking...den go home...yeeehah!!i reali wana score for ma exams..apape pon jadi nk g poly jgak...go jannah go!amcm?nad vs me...design vs biznes...?hahahha...

okei...nk g blaja...gd luck ma frenz...!!

STUDY-IN-PROGRESS!!

2006-02-14T23:04:00.000-08:00

haha..okei im damn bored lar..juz finis doin ma acc..strez babe!!tk bley angkat...so much ting i nid to count here n ther...duno how many tyms i slamd ma calculator...kalo bley bebual da mintak ampon pon...haha...okei...i post twice again...haha...so free of ma tym to do all tis...hmm...im bored again..haha...so lets do tis...!!okei go!

1 )When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what did you think:
*~*wah!i look tis hawt uh..hahahah!!
( 2 )How much cash do you have on you?:
*~* 1dollar..haha...kene budget2...
( 3 )What's a word that rhymes with "TEST"?:
*~* pest?haha...
( 4 )Favorite planet?:
*~* earth...psl pat sini jek de manusia...haha...
( 5 )Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?:
*~* haha...gd ques...coincidence..its HIM..end in mind
( 6 )What is your favorite ring on your phone?:
*~* here w/o u..wen he col..haha...suke2...
( 7)What shirt are you wearing?:
*~* ma rugby jersey..todae hot lar..
( 8 )Do you "label" yourself?:
*~* ape ke hei?
( 9 )Name the brand of your sandal you're currently wearing now:
*~* pat umah mane pkai sandal...hmmm...i hv havaianas
( 10 )Bright or Dark Room?:
*~* bright uh..jadi cam hapi skit masok bilik...
( 11 )What do you think about the person who took this survey before you?
*~* ntah eh...copy n paste frm frenster...de lar bdk tuh sdare aku minaaaaat sgt...
( 12 )What were you doing at midnight last night?:
*~* haha..tok to him...
( 13 )What did your last text message you received on your cell say?:
*~* haha...no. hp org uh...tk kan nk letak pat sini...
( 14 )Where is your nearest 7-11?:
*~* pat st 11...5 mins walk uh
( 15 )What's a saying(s) that you say a lot?:
*~* mangkok!
( 16 )Who told you they loved you last?:
*~* hmmm..."me syg u jgak..."hahaha...
( 17 )Last furry thing you touched?:
*~* can it b ma baby taz pillow?dia cam de furry2 skit...shiok...
( 18 )How many days of school did you miss this week:
*~* im a gd student..hmmm...didnt miz skol...haha
( 19 )How many rolls of film do you need to get developed?:
*~* now still use film meh?hahah
( 20 )Favorite age you have been so far?:
*~* 17,18,19...hmm...being wif sum1 makes me hapi...duno abt 20 plak...lets juz c..
( 21 )Your worst enemy?:
*~* hmm...cant remember...hv ALOT of enemies...haha...cam real...im a gd person...hehe
( 22 )What is your current desktop picture:
*~* hmm...pix of him...haha...okei2..i noe...bt memories babe...later i show u..
( 23 )What was the last thing you said to someone?:
*~* mak..bsok kejot kul 6 tau...haha!
( 24 )If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly, which would you choose?:
*~* million bucks lar...kan shiok dpt duit...bkn slalu dpt million bucks...
( 25 )Do you like someone?:
*~* u tink?
( 26 )The last song you listened to?:
*~* neva be replaced..im lovin it...
( 27 )Carmen Electra or Pam Anderson?:
*~* erm?nana can?haha
( 28 )If a tree falls on a mime in the middle of a forest, will the mime make a noise?:
*~* da mampos pon agaknye...
( 29 )can you sing?:
*~* of coz...im too gd to join s'pore idol...hahah.."if i cant if i cant hv u..."
( 30 )Your bday?
*~* 5th of march 1986..19 more dayz...haha..remember tat!!

okei tis is ma current wallpaper...cherish evri moment...okei i shall stop now...gd nyt...

2006-02-14T19:13:00.000-08:00

okei as u can c...todae is v-day...okei n im nt a kind person hu celebrates it...but i luv to enjoy n c th surroundings...whereva u go..its abt luv...luv here n ther...romantic stuffs here n ther...

okei im late again todae...pd hal da jln lincah2...n th gate cloz infront of ma face...hahah...den afta assembly...thers performance by th counsellors...luv songs...yela...kate v-day...

haha...okei lessons as per normal...todae we hd s&w...n congrats to imah..she got th money for th top napfa ape ntah...so imah...bile mau blanje..?aku yg slame nih traind ko...hahaha...den tchr said if any of th gurlz can run beat th guyz...nx wk no running for th gurlz...haha...den we askd imah to run as fast as she can to beat th guyz...she managed keh...haha...beh kite yg lain kene lari jgak...terpekik2 pat blkg kasi support imah...hahahah...den we playd netball as a claz...laki pon join...lepak keh...pnat pekik2...reali hd fun uh wif ma clazmates...tadi cam bonding gituk...im lovin it..

okei...at skol...here n ther ppl bring flowers...candies...prezens...haha...songs been playd at th canteen...'i open ma eyes...'hahaha...okei...its th private joke for ma cliquez...amcm?zouk?hahah...den came to th funny part...thers tis 1 guy,a counsillor uh...lyks tasha...n its damn obvious lar...evritym he saw 1 of us....dia cam tercarik2 tasha...haha...n surely tgk2...kalo tk pon...curik2 tgk...kwn diapon skaki sey tgk...cam nk telan...hahah...den during lesson...3 gurlz came to our claz..n askd for tasha...they gave her 3 roses...haha...n thers a card...n okei..its frm tat counsillor guy...hahah...he gav her his fon no. too...haha...cmon boy...she's attached...n she's totally nt gona lead u on...haha...dun u ever lead sum1 on if u dun hv feelings for tat sum1...b honest..

hmm...getting excited n all seeing tasha received flowers...haha..ive neva eva in ma entire 19 yrs...receive flowers..okei...eventho im nt into flowers...i luv beylon!!beylon tat can float ard...haha...so kiut...makes me excited kalo de beylon...hahah...nevamind..th bestest gift i wan is......
imah u noe wat rite?hahah...so i wan tat keh....

okei2...enuf of prezens n all...ma acc test on thurs...n ther seems lyk ALOT of tings lar i havent study yet...been so busy lar...haven col up ppl for ma MiQ tingy...so busy...nt enuf tym...argh!!stres!!okei2..bro's wana hv picnic tis sun...excited okei..another bonding wif family plak...ma cheaper by th dozen...hahahaha....

okei...im tired...i nid to rest b4 practise ma acc laterz...sis working nite shift again...yippie!!tis room belongs to me again...hahah...okei dokie...v-day is nt th only day u can luv sum1...evryday is a luv day...so cherish evri moment wif ur luv ones...

Baby i love you and i'll never let u go
but if i have to boi i think that you should noe
all the love we made
can never be erased
and i promise you that you wil never be replaced.

2006-02-13T20:27:00.000-08:00

"me syg u jugak.."

haha...nad...cant get tat words of ma mind..now still having tis stooopid grin...makes me miz tat words...ALOT..miz him saying tat to me..wif th tone n face...th manje2 face...chet!!miz miz miz....

hahaha...okei2...duno y i tink abt it...todae i came for ma assembly...haha...for th 1st tym i gues...wahahahah....den afta skol mit nad...we wen to tp..she juz wana check out th course she want...apparel design...n yeah...i manage to keypoh2 pat biz in accountancy n finance...asked how much th gpa they want...n guez wat...he said 3!!!!yes ma dear frenz....its 3!!!hahahahahha...i realy2 wana get ma diploma...but i wan biz in accountancy only!!n its at sp or np...hmmm...sp eh?haha...i kinda lyk tp lar..near ma houz...juz a 3 bustop away...sp oso orite jgk lar...naik train tkya tuka2...hmmm...see how lar eh...sp or tp...?hmmm....kinda nk sp...tapi..............

okei...2 more days for ma CA acc....haven study yet...n i hv 4 assignment to do...haven stat yet...mayb later wana finis it...tmr muz pas up lar...asyik main2 jek pat skol...hahahahahh...

tapi mcm mls plak...hahahahah...boring to th max!!okei2...dari boring2 puas ati gi uat hmwk kan...ishk!

okei go!

2006-02-12T15:04:00.000-08:00

okei...i ended up at home alone...ma parents wen to johor w/o me...sad...so sad...tot of goin out wif imah..bt im too lazy to go out...n ma sis coming over wif her tunang...haiz...so muz stay at home lar...

bored..

bored..

okei2...still haven touch ma acc bk...tot of revising it..but too lazy..im hungry...lazy to cook..sape2 bley anta kan mknan..or cook for me??haha...im damn bored lar skg...so to avoid being bored...i tink im gona....

sleep!!!hahahah...yessa ah...!!!i woke up early todae...th smangat nk g ngaja...so now i shld sleep...sleep...sleep...anti da angon aru bley blaja...hahaha....okei dokie....

gd nite evribody..!!hahah...gd afternoon uh...

lil miz nana so th ngantok...

2006-02-11T23:20:00.000-08:00

burp!alhamdulillah...haha...2 post in 1 day...c how bored ma lyf is...

ma daddy so swit...he cooked for me n mummy maggie...haha...actuali ma mummy asked me to cook...but...hmm...okei imah stop it...i noe ure making tat face n said abt ma maggie goreng...bluek!but i juz lurve daddy's cook...he's gd at cooking...hmm...shld find husband hu can cook...hmmm...he can?hahahah...k stop!

ma stomach sooo full...pd hal i didnt ate ma breakkie..ma lunchie...hmm...mayb becoz of ma flu..no appetite...tadi pon mkn skit jek..makes me wana puke...n now i wana puke...eeeeeeee.....feel so sick sey...n tis flu getting worse...argh!!help....makan tk kenyang..minom tk hauz...tido tk ngantok...hahah...i luv to said tat to ma frenz if theyre having prob or wat...n now i tink im having it rite now...haha...hehe...

cant wait for thurs..having ma claz foto..haha...gona miz ma clazmates..!!!awww...frm IQD...we became IQQ...yeeehah!especially ma cutie2 cliquez!!gona miz u gurlz lotx n lotx n lotx...plz keep contact keh..tkmo sebok ngn matair jek...hahaha...eventho its only 2 yrs...theyre th bez of frenz i hd..we th owayz th relek 1 corner nye..n th kecoh among all..especially me uh...lagik2 tym smart ledger...angin dia lain skit...tok2 non-stop...n nyanyi lagu jiwang non-stop...hahahah..n owayz th luv2 to take fotos...hahah...btw,i took tis pix...kiut kan...

our fons...haha..fons tat get us connected..mcm advertisement nokia plak...'get connected'..haha..in case u cant c hu's fon is hu's...since ma blog cant enlarge th foto..tk tahu knape..let me tell ya..th standing behind...starting frm left:imah,sar n tasha..bottom left:yus n mine...hahaha...luv ya cliquez sooo much...muackz!!!

2006-02-11T22:09:00.000-08:00

im damn bored lar...

hmm....as i was searching for ma ITE results...yela...kan result slip de 3 skg...so wana find ma 1st n 2nd semester nye uh...den search inside ma almari...carik nye carik...skali jumpe old2 fotos...haha...n yeah...i used to lyk tis pix so much...i noe i shldnt post tis...but cant help it...i lyk th pix... kiut!!

haha...i tink tis is th 1st foto we had togeder...yeah...i tink uh...yeah...haha...i remember bcoz of tis pix...ma fader nid to mit ma ex-skol principal..hahah...klakar babe...laz tym...tis is th nicest pix we had uh...or did i said its our 1st pix?hahahaha....yeah..im luvin it...

haha...tis is th 1st pix i hv frm him...yela...dulu aru nk matair2 beh tkde gamba...haha...he gave me tis pix..dia yg 2nd left wearing light blue...haha...n in th front row left is ma bezfren,nad...nyahah...mase nih lom agik kenal dia...hmm...dulu suke gile keh gamba nih..anti showoff2 pat kwn2...'ni lar matair aku'...hahahah!!zaman secondary skol....

okei...th very very slenge pix...haha...very th slenge till wen i look at it..we look lyk pakcikx n makcikx...hahaha...but yeah...smue org penah jadi kental n slenge pe...hahahahah

hmmm...tats all th bez2 pix lar...not reali bez lar...its memorable...den i saw ma old diary....in it i wrote tis...

a-adorable(haha..pdku dia lar paling kiut)

h-hensem(mesti lar hensem..haha..bluek)

m-mad(kdg2 gile tk tentu psl)

a-adventurous(suke nah explore bende2)

d-darling(mine...hehe)

f-funny(kekek maut)

a-ahmad(tkde idea...name dia uh)

i-irresistable(luv those scar on th left eyebrow)

r-rude(kdg2 bebual main shoot jek)

u-unique(sumting special abt him)

z-zebra(1st tym nk pancing aku..pkai baju belang2 color black n white)

a-attractive(cant get my eyes of u)

n-naughty(nakal nk mati)

haha...tis is wat i wrote lar in ma diary...dia penah bace...tk tahu lar dia masih ingat agik tk...haha..n yeah nad...come to tink of it...i do hv ALOT of memories wif him...n pix too...haha..alot of ma tings wif him..alot of his wif me...hmm...so tell me how to forget abt him?imah used to throw all her ex nye brg...tk kan aku nk buang smue kan...mp3?hahah...tk nk uh...simpan lar smue uat kenangan...i reali luv him lotx...n im nt gona throw evriting...n i still remember i made for him a book of us on his beday laz yr...if u ever wana throw it away..DUN!juz giv me back...those were th memories...our name...nanAmad...5rujan...hmmm...sound familiar?yeah...tats ma blog name...hahahahhah....im luvin it...

okei2..tmr de ngaja...n yippie!my family wait for me till finis ma claz...hahah..we're goin johor...!!da lame dok tk g johor...nk shopping uh...btw,i remember tat i bought for him th pillow..duno wen nk kasi dia...hmmmmmm.....

ok laz2...pix of me n him tym kental jgk...hmm...look into each other eyes...

wat is luv?

wen u noe tat person..u feel comfortable wif him ard...ur hart beats so fast wen u heard his name...u get excited wen toking abt him..eventho how late he is(nk mit)th moment he came..u juz cant remember how mad u r towards him..no matter how upset he dresses,u find him th cutest of all..u juz cant take ur eyes away frm him..u wan to b wif him jek..wif him in ur lyf,u feel protected..secured...wen ure scared or u feel damn upset wif ur lyf,he will b th 1st person u search..n to u only him tat can makes u hapi n complete ur day...but wen he's nt ther..u feel alon n empty n miz him lotx..n all u can do is juz pray to God to protect him..may he hv a nice n wonderful lyf..may he can handle all th strez tat he's been goin thru...may he excel in his studies..-frm nana to amad...

2006-02-10T20:30:00.000-08:00

yippie..!!todae my room belongs to me!!!yeah...me!!!all alone in ma room...!!sis working nite shift..haha...but...gona b so lonely...hmm...wat i wana do for ma wkends??

duno y i hate wkends...wkends mean no skol...no skol mean no miting ma frenz...argh!!futhermore nad's having camp for tis wkends...yikes!!lil miz nana became more lonely...haiz...sumtyms i juz wana b alone lar jgk...alone frm evrybody...i luv to sit in ma room...doing nuting...juz lying in ma bed..looking at ma starry ceiling...n do nuting...hahah...wat a boring lyf i hv...

parents wif sis n ayip goin johor tis sun...they ask me whether i wana follow them...im nt sure...if i can get replacment for ma claz...den mayb i wana follow...i wana go out of ma mess lyf...but wateva it is...whereva u go...u cant seems to get out of ur prob...

hmmm...yus beday is tis sat...duno wat to buy for her...hmmm....

acc CA2 is on thurs...i havent study yet..budgeted quite easy lar...but its complicated...usually i copy2 ma frenz...hahah...tu lar...da nk test aru nk kelam kabot...haiz...tgk lar eh...mayb tonite stat revising ma acc....bt tk tahu lar..cam tkde mood sey..cant reali concerntrate in ma studies..ishk!!poly dok poly!!

i juz realize tat tmr is pay day!!!yippie...gona receive skol money frm sis...nid to pay ma bill..buy yus prezzie..shoping!!haha..

i remember i promised him nk blanje dia...but..i duno if he still wana tok to me...he's keeping quiet...so i guez he doesnt wana tok to me uh...okei..im fine wif it...so used to all tis...frenz come n go...but i owayz worried abt him..worried too much tat sumtyms i ask ppl to check him out...whether he's okei or nt..whether he's sick or nt...whether he's hapi or sad..duno..sumtyms i worried too much tat im afraid ppl might go away..mcm gini uh..going away...

i had tis weird dream...in th dream...i was sleeping...at th same position n all..in ma room...wif ma hp beside me..den sum1 msg me...n it was him..saying tat 'im sori tat i didnt tok to u for th past few dayz..im juz abit stres out..can we tok?'..beh cam real sey...beh tros tersadar..n i was holding ma hp...!!den i quickly look at ma inbox..haha...no msg frm him..!!haha...mayb a dream is juz a dream...

wat i wana do tonite...??tmr??th day afta tmr??

hmm...evrybody super bz wif their luv ones...yikes!!so i juz sit n watch how ma lyf goes...

hapi wkends..!2 days seems lyk 2 wks..haha!!anybody wana ask me out??or how abt swaping lyfs wif me?anybody?plz raise ur hand!!

hapi anniversary imah!!haha...her anniversary 10 april huh?hmm...th day b4 tat was..................

2006-02-09T20:29:00.000-08:00

5 signs your in love:
As soon as you get online
- whos name do you look at first

when you hear your phone ringing
- who do you hope is calling

when a love song comes on the radio
- whos face comes to your mind

whos name makes your heart skip a beat
every time you hear it

who is it that you always find yourself thinking about
- wondering if they're thinking about you

2006-02-09T18:08:00.000-08:00

hmm...y shld i care abt other ppl?y shld concern abt other ppl wen other ppl hv other ppl to care abt them?y did i put all th affort?ppl dun appreciate ur affort..wat did u get frm doin all tis?ppl hate u more?ppl ignore u more?ppl hurt u more?hmm...pe lagik...gulong tikar ah... y?y?told ya its goin down th drain...she win...u lose...so..giv up!!!eventho its so nt me to giv up...bt i duno...if it happen to me...u noe...sum1 u luv having apape lar wif sum1 else...confem mangkok kan...?so...i dun wan to hurt anibody..wat can i do now is backoff...juz hope tat he get wateva tings tat he's been searching for..n hope tat he excel in evriting..studies...lyf...luv lyf..i pray for ur happiness...as long as u hapi...im hapi too....

if u luv sum1,u shld let them go...
luv is a fan club wif only 2 fans...so...stick to 2...plz nt more than tat...yeah..gd luck...

we hv alot of memories togeder...hapi or sad...bt most of all...i owayz remember th hapi moments...so yah...lets juz cloz th book..n put it aside...nangis airmate dara pon tk ley uat pape kan...

if we're meant for each other..we will b togeder...

forget his name,forget his face
forget his kiss,his warm embrace
forget his luv tat once was true
remember now,his sum1 new..

forget th luv tat once was shared
foget th fact tat he once cared
forget th tyms u spent togeder
remember now his gone 4eva..

forget u cried th whole nite long
forget u ever played our song
forget th tym he was mad
remember now he's hapi nt sad..

forget u memorised his walk
forget th way he used to tok
forget how cloz u 2 once were
remember now he has chosen her..

forget his gentle teasing way
forget u saw him evriday
forget th tyms u planned tings to do
remember now she luvs him too..

forget th thrill wen he walked by
forget th tyms he made u cry
forget th way he spoke ur name
remember now tings arent th same..

forget th way he held ur hand
forget th swit tings if u can
forget th way tings wen so fast
remember now he's in ur past..

forget he said, 'i'll leave u neva'
remember now,he's gone forever...

if u ever nid sum1..u noe i'll owayz b here to lend u ma big ears...u will owayz b th person in ma hart..thru hapi tyms or sad tyms...take care

2006-02-08T20:23:00.000-08:00

IM SICK!!

still sick...ma flu getting worse...my nose itchy lyk mangkok!!argh!!i hv eyebags...haha...bag utk mate ku...wahaha...eyes became smaller n sepet-er...haha...mangkok2...i reali2 luv ma lyf now...reali luv it till im sick of it...reali sick of it...i nid a lyf...its getting mangkok tingkat...daily routine...

woke up @6..wen to skol...
afta skol...wen home straight...
sleep till late afternoon..
den doing nuting...
sit n reminisce all of th tings tat happens in ma lyf...
n it makes me cry...

bored rite?

no wonder im sick of it..

came to tink abt it...its been whole damn a yr lar tat we actuali broke up...so here i am..still lyk tis...while sooo many tings happens in his lyf...u cant say tat much coz ure his fren...nt more than tat..so jannah...please come to ur senses tt u shld move on too...

im reali reali afraid...afraid to get hurt again...enuf of getting hurt by only 1 person..lyk i keep on saying to maself...cherish evri moment...so yah...i hd great tym wif him...lyk i said...he owayz complete ma day...

tis song keeps on repeating again n again in ma songlist...n oso ma mp3...let me share to u th song...radja-jujur...

Duhai kekasih pujaan hatiku
Dapatkah kau memberiku satu erti
Sedikit rasa yang bisa ku mengerti
Bukan sumpah atau janji

Buktikanlah bila kau ada cinta
Setulus hatimu bisa menerima
Sebatas kejujuran yang kau miliki
Bukan sekadar bersama

Jujurlah padaku
bila kau tak lagi cinta
Tinggalkanlah aku
bila tak mungkin bersama
Jauhi diriku,
lupakanlah aku

ohh.. oh.. oh..

Jujurlah padaku
bila kau tak lagi suka
Tinggalkanlah aku
bila tak mungkin bersama
Jauhi diriku,
lupakanlah aku
Selamanya..

haha...nice song rite?hmm...me n nad swaping our lyf...she's th luving2 now...alhamdulillah...while im in ma 1-sided luv...alhamdulillah...im luvin it

juz now follow ma clique to orchard...they wan to survey2 nk li kan ape lar for valentine's day...eventho i dun celebrate it...i juz hate it..evriwher u go...gifts for ur luv ones...bluek!!wait till i hv ma luv ones den i oso can enjoy th gifts2...nt for v-day...its juz a gift frm th person u luv...doesnt mean on v-day jek u lup2...evriday is a lup2-day..hehehe....

saw tis 1 gift...it wrote:
"luv is a fan club wif only 2 fans"
haha..yeah...cant hv 3 or 4 fans...its juz 2...nt more than tat...nt less than tat...tats wat u col L-O-V-E..

as for ma fan club...i luv evribody!!!

LIL MIZ NANA SO SICK..

2006-02-07T21:11:00.000-08:00

headache.
ma body feel warm.
my nose blockd.
ive no appetite.
my eyes hurt.
my hart hurt.

argh!!im sick...th whole body feel so weak..!!my suare da sengau...argh!!i hate all tis happen...u will get irritated by a small2 tings...rimas pat mcm2 bende...much more worse than having pms..argh!!stay away frm me ppl..if u dun wana get scolded...my lyf's in a mess..im afraid to mit ppl...im afraid to get hurt...ive enuf of getting hurt..

we're frenz..

frenz come n go..

u cant force ppl..

btw, i received an award..haha...in th letta it wrote...'i congratulate u for making a gd prgress in ur studies'...haha...gd progress huh?bt nt very gd result...juz tat ive been improving alot..yeah..evritym in ma mind i wld tink abt ppl i luv most...my family...frenz...frenz..my ambition...i wana b a tchr...hope so..so i muz excel in ma studies...i wana go poly...coz tats wher i wana go at 1st...tapi tk lar kesampaian...so i nid to go looooong loooong way...wen to ITE for 2 yrs...damn far frm home..but evriday i will remind maself tat i wana go poly...so go to skol!!alhamdulillah...wif ma upset lyf...i still can concerntrate on ma studies...i dun wana get aniting to affect it..ma upset lyf makes me stronger to face future challenges...makes ma brain tinks maturedly(i gues)...wen thers a will...thers a way...i thankful to Allah...for making me a strong gurl..for me to handle all kind of situations in ma lyf for ma pas 2 yrs in ITE...tings tat happend in ma lyf for th pas 3yrs too..

sick entry wif a sick ppl...im sick of evriting...i wana go far far far away frm ma lyf...i cant pleased anybody...n i hate it...

LIL MIZ NANA..HATE HER LYF...

26 more days to ma beday...
6 more wks till graduation...

2006-02-06T19:08:00.000-08:00

okei imah...todae i'll post th pix...enjoy..

we're at al-syeikh...nyahah...juz chill2..get togeder2

me n yus...haha...th whitez...

imah n lash...sha...knape tuh?imah busok eh?nyahaha...n syam...ur leg spoilt th pix...nyahahahha...

th 4 kiut2 gurlz...imah,me,tasha n yus...wher's sar?her sis-in-law gave birth to a baby boy...congrats..!!so ni makcik excited dpt anak sdarez yg ke-13!!!

tasha n yus...kiut bt nt available...hahahah

imah n me...cutie pie...nyahahah...she's nt available...i am...hahah...no lar...tk nk ckp....

2 gurlz sheesha-ing...while th other 1 duno wat to do...so suck ur finger...hahahahha

2 gurlz on th high...hahaha....naik shiok plak....

peepz hu chill2 togeder2...tanx peepz!!

imah,yus n me...at th roof top...haha...yeah ppl...i wore skirt...n tat pink bag belongs to me...hahaha...swit tk???

so yeah...tats all th pix pplz...i hd fun goin out wif ma cliques...but i noe i'll b much more happier if...

okei2...so...6 more wks till graduation...me n ma cliquez dun wana apart...we're so so so comfortable wif each other presence....each of us hv our own personalities...

sar:owayz th kene bully one...suke masok cite tgh2...penyelit...dia kalo kene bully slalu rabak...haha...sori gurl...its a joke je keh...sar byk saba org nye...kene bully pon dia diam...sejak2 dia kwn ngan kite...dia da pandai menjwb skit...haha...so jgn bully sar ah!!!anti kite smue bully krg alik...kite jek bley bully sar...ahahahah...apape pon...i luv ya sar!!!!

imah:th sumtyms pekak nih...lari laju gile babi...jgn kasi dia ngamok...kalo tk anti dia maki2 krg...teman aku alik skol slalu...kalo lmbat g skol,carik lar dia...confem dia ade pat depan gate...hahaha...dia kekdg cacat otak skit...hahah!!i luv ya imah!!!

tasha:ma neighbour in claz...dia nye org diam2 lepu...kalo mengamok,bley tahan jgk...org nye tk suke serak2...so kalo dia dok ngn aku tuh...brg2 aku confem masok pat area dia...confem kene bising...'jannah!!kecoh ah brg ko!!' 'asal ko dok dkat2 ngn aku nih?'...hahaha...she's sum1 hu can listen to ya prob....i luv ya tasha!!!

yus:ni kecik2 cili padi...dia nye bully org kalah aku...dia kalo tk suke dia sound ko...direct nye org...kutok pon tk agak2..haha...sejak2 nih...member da de azam baru aku rase lar...smngt gile keh blaja....bagoz lar tuh...dia sorg jek tinggal westside...tapi no matter how far u stay...u still our bezpeeps...!!!i luv ya yus...!!!!

okei..todae emo entry for ma cliquez...HE can put aside for awhile...he wil owayz b ma end in mind...hmmm....gona miz ya cliquez!!!!

2006-02-05T21:18:00.000-08:00

IF I CAN'T
IF I CAN'T
HAVE YOU
BABY I DON'T WANNA BE
WITH NO-ONE ELSE
IF I CAN'T
IF I CAN'T
HAVE YOU
BABY I WOULD RATHER BE
BY MYSELF

2006-02-05T20:41:00.000-08:00

hmm...been so down lately...i duno y...i hate ma lyf...im confused...for th pas few wks ive been sooo th hapi2...den now im so th sad2...upset!

as usual...laz tym im hapi becoz of him...he was ther evritym..but my frenz said tat I WAS th 1 hu was ther evritym...i duno...frenz blaming him n all..said tat 'wen he nid me,i'll owayz b ther 4 him...but wen he dun nid me,he can throw me away'...no no no...ive been ther 4 him coz i wan to...coz i noe tat he nid sum1 lyk me hu noes him beta den any1 else...tkpe lar...lyk i said i dun mind getting hurt n all...i noe im stoopid wif all tis shit...i duno...!!im juz fucking hate ma lyf...fuck fuck fuck..!!argh!!full of vulgarities...didnt even noe wher tis word 'fuck' came frm...but nowadayz ppl used it more often..but y me?ishk!!i duno wat im angry abt...i duno y im angry at myself..i duno y i feel so crappy...i duno y i cry...I DUNO!!!plz Allah..giv me th strenght..!!i guez to forget th same person for th 2nd tym damn hard lar...i duno how HE can do tat..y cant i?y HE can move on...is tis how far his luv towards me all along?or im supposed to get all tis for how i treated him?but i was nice to him...he's evriting to me..he's ma other half..wen im wif him...i didnt even stop toking abt him to ma frenz...im owayz worried abt him wen he's sick...im owayz ther to share his happpiness n sadness in his lyf...is tat nt gd enuf??i cant pleased anybody...i cant pleased him...how i wish tat i wld go away...far far away frm ma upset lyf...

im confused...im down...so so down...sori peeps cant post th fotos yest..we wen sheesha-ing btw..i got no mood to tok abt it...eventho im hapi goin out wif ma cliques...still...th feeling aint th same w/o him joining us...or w/o him by myside...hmmm....sum other tym i upload th fotos...aite?

btw,ma babe,nad, reali hapi wif her is...mate de lup2...haha...hmm....i remember those days...haiz...tkmo ckp lagik...hope tat u n him will laz forever...cherish evri moment...haha!

todae exactly 1 more mth to ma beday2..nt looking forward to it...wif ma sux lyf...how i wish tat he......................

2006-02-04T15:47:00.000-08:00

im sitting here watching th afternoon rain
wif my arms folded against th window pane
hearing a sigh in tis world so blue
been wondering y i keep tinking of u..

memories all came running wen i cloz ma eyes
evriting rewinds frm th end to th stat
i asked myself if all tat u'd said were simply lies
rite frm th moment tat u took ma hart..

u once promise 2 luv me 4eva
another tym swore tat u'd care
now u say u cant remember
n wen i nid sum1 ure neva ther..

i still hold on to ma desire
n pray tat promise u'll 1 day find
my unrequited luv is like an eternal fire
a burning hope tat once again u'll b mine..

damn!!ive no mood...

2006-02-03T20:28:00.000-08:00

i recorded th video he sent me to ma fon..haha...so tat i cld watch it on th go..obsessed..!!bluek!

ive been too lazy sey after cny...im too lazy to go to skol...im too lazy to do ma assignment...im slacking...!!n im nt supposed to do tat!!!cmon...poly babe....poly...!!!im reali slacking now...i dun feel lyk skoling sey...ishk!!i dun wan all tis to effect ma studies...damn!!

im still confused n duno wat to do afta i graduate...my results nt tat gd lar laz semester...i duno whether i can apply poly...kalo tk g poly...nk uat pe?keje?tat was wat my mum ask me to do...she didnt wan me to cont studies...coz she said tat tkde org nk tanggong...ishk!!upset lar...

i duno wats wrong wif me lar nowadays...i became pemls nk mati nye...ive no mood for evryting...i duno...im juz lost...still searching n searching...trying to improve maself to become sum1 beta...but...wat for i wana become sum1 beta if tat sum1 doesnt even care?

im driving him away now...reali..he's no longer msg/col me...tanx alot ah jannah...uve been such a pain in th ass...!!i oso duno wats wrong wif me sey..i wana tok to him...coz ive been soo sooo down lately...n i wana tok to him..coz he owayz complete ma day..wher r u?he wasnt ther for me...he had his own lyf now...sob...sob...

th tyms i hv wif u is very special..
2 reach out 2 u n noe u'll b ther..
tat means all th world 2 me..
my hart is wif u whereva u go,
my luv is urs no matter wat..
wen u smile at me,
i noe its frm ur hart..
i noe u'll do 4 me wat no1 else wld do..
n if i dun tell u i luv u as often as i shld..
its becoz i hope tat deep down inside..
u luv me too...

mit up ma bezfren juz now...gave her th belated beday prezzie...its a short outing uh todae...but we hd fun rite?cherish evri moment...hahah..

if u keep on laughing n laughing...u will cry by th end of th day...ishk!n i did...i broke down...cant help it...duno y....

2006-02-03T00:35:00.000-08:00

i hate my lyf..i hate being me..

how i wish EVRITING will b orite...wif him by my side...damn!i cant do neting...its hard to be okei in front of evribody..but actuali deep inside u feel hurt...dissapointed..evriting...

feel lonely...w/o u by my side...

how i wish tat evriting will b okei...how i wish tat i cld b in ur hart once again...

u'll owayz b th person in ma end in mind....

2006-02-01T21:13:00.000-08:00

todae i didnt came late to skol...!!haha...i tink im proving by nt coming late again...haha...hope so...did ma detention juz now wif sar,yus n tasha...we're juz chill2 at th student hub watching vcd...haha...bored.

hmmm...im feeling so crap todae...duno y...im juz nt in a mood for evriting..did ma assignment...den juz tok n tok wif ma neighbour in claz,tasha....hmm...lotx of stories to update...haha...we're telling all sort of stories...wat we do during our 4 dayz of holz...haha...tasha's guy,syam,col me 'mangkok tingkat'...haha...coz i luv to say tat...

i tink he's confused lar...mayb he's nt prepared for a serious relationship..im giving him some space...or mayb he doesnt lyk me nemore...he hv sum1 new rite...??hmm...u nid 2 hands to clap rite?ntah lar..if he's prepared to b wif me...den im owayz here for him...lyk i said..i will only luv 1 person...n tat is H-I-M..take care u...we're frenz rite?

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Ingatlah aku walau sesaat
Seorang insan yang terluka

can u b by my side?

2006-01-31T19:41:00.000-08:00

tis is ma anak sdarez..haha...he came to ma houz todae...wif tis outfit...hahah...kiut...den i said to him...'asal superman pkai slua dlm pat lua?' den he said..'psl superman kan tuka baju cpat2..beh dia lupe nk pkai slua dlm...jadi dia pkai pat lua uh...kan dia superhero...nk cpat..'hahahahahhaha...
mcm pakcik keypoh keh ni bdk....

2006-01-31T18:56:00.000-08:00

*NEVA BEEN REPLACED*

Baby i love you and i'll never let u go
but if i have to boi i think that you should noe
all the love we made
can never be erased
and i promise you that you wil never be replaced.

Baby i love you and i'll never let you go
but if i have to boi i think that you should noe
all the love we made
can never be erased
and i promise you that you will never be replaced.

i love you
yes i do.
I'll be with you as long as you wan me to
until.... the end... of time....

from the day i met you i knew we'd be together
and now i know i wanna be with you forever
i wanna marry you
and i wanna have your kids
thinking never compared to the feeling of your kisses. I can say
i'm truly happy to this day
you make me think i'll die i'll live my life hesitate
there's never been no doubt
in my mind
and i regret ever having you by my side.

But if the day comes that i have to let you go
i think there's something i should probably let you know.
Join everyday
that i spend with you
and i'll miss you cos i'm happy that i have you at all.

Baby i love you and i'll never let u go
but if i have to boi i think that you should noe
all the love we made
can never be erased
and i promise you that you wil never be replaced.

Baby i love you and i'll never let you go
but if i have to boi i think that you should noe
all the love we made
can never be erased
and i promise you that you will never be replaced.

i love you
yes i do.
I'll be with you as long as you wan me to
until.... the end... of time....

hmmm...i juz dun hv th mood to tok n all...i duno y....im feeling upset...for sooo long ive been TIS strong..n now i didnt noe whether i shld giv up or wat....im confused wif ma lyf...im confused wif ma feelings...if only i cld turn back tym...how i wish evriting will b orite once again...but its no use..u cant turn back...u hafta look infront n look forward..im hopelez...uselez...all th lez2...n nt lezbian uh...hahha...crap!argh!!!wat am i doing?being all tis emo ting...cmon...juz back to ur rule no. 1...n move on...b hapi...open ur sepet eyes big2...open ur hart wide2....but...can i?argh!!!!

geez..!!how do ppl change their luv ones soo fast?

sheesh...i guez i still luv him...n i noe evribody noes...but so wat?u can lyk more than 1 guyz...but u can luv ONLY 1 guy...n to me...its HIM...

im tired...n ma face burning...im tanned again..!!yahoo!!no more chi-no-ney face...hahahah
i had fun yest..tanx!

2006-01-29T16:02:00.000-08:00

hapi chinese new yr to all th chinese ppl!!i oso chinese...haha...wat a boring day...todae de ngaja...n todae for th 1st tym...i didnt came late....!!nyahaha...daddy send me...n todae th claz smue cam mangkok lar...tkde org...da lar bdk2 tuh sikit...ramai yg tk dtg...ishk!!

sit at home th whole day...since evriwher u go...cam pat ghost town...upset sunggoh...i wana go out...but duno nk g ane....ishk!!

boring taap agong nye!!!

hmmm....'Baby i love you and i'll never let u go..but if i have to boi i think that you should noe..all the love we made..can never be erased..and i promise you that you wil never be replaced..'haha..imah..aku asyik nyanyi jek lagu nih...upset sungguh...hope ure okei babe....

haiz...ma mouth infection ngah on th kering mode...its peeling...hahahah....tadi kene mara ngn ma student...i keep on peeling tis ting...den...1 of ma student said 'tchr...u noe its painful...stop peeling!!!nanti bleeding..'...upset sungguh....

k im damn bored...nuting to do...juz cant wait for tmr...c wat plan i hv...

our memories are like the falling stars

they disappear beautifully but will never appear again

the days we watched the sun disappear over the horizon

the days we sat together and drew a heart on the sand

though they're all over now

it doesn't matter

you're all my heart wants

my heart beats for you,every second, every minute.

even if it was only a dream

i'll wish for you to b wif me

2006-01-28T19:42:00.000-08:00

wat a boring day todae...!!evriwher u go...th plac da jadi cam ghost town...yikes!!totally empty sey...shop cloz here n ther...hmm...luckily ma houz near th shell...bley jgk mlm g beli apape ke...hehe...de jgk uh 7-11...but abit far lar...

i woke up early todae...7.30am!!haha...nid to send ma mum to hosp for her appointment...luckily its at CGH...near ma houz...only 2 bustop away..hmm...CGH eh?i remember visit amad laz tym...hahah...n chinese new yr...i remember i was admitted to th hosp during cny...pri 5?hd asthma attack...parents send me to hosp since ther's no clinic opens on TAT day...ishk!!

hosp pon da jadi cam ghost town...it was lyk 10am...but all th clinic cloz oreadi...n tis physiotherapist ma mum nid to mit ni upset lar...dia lar yg dok pat registration...dia lar yg physiotherapist dia...ishk!tmpt besa2 tapi dia sorg jek keje...confem yg lain da amik cuti...nyahaha!!

wait for ma mum...follow her whereva she go...since she cant speak english...i became th translator...hahaha...dia kene g gym dok...haha..my mum suffering frm frozen arm ke ape ntah dia panggil...meaning...she cant raise up her right hand...luckily she's a left-hander...tats y she still can jahit baju.."si manisah ni asal mlm...degedek...degedek.."hahha

me mum doin her hand-cycling...hahah...she said its boring...go mum!!

th other tings they have....ishk!its empty...im so tempted to use all tis tings...since im suffering a back ache n leg pain...hahah...btw,ma mum's physiotherapist kinda kiut..hahah...quite young...hahahah....

damn boring day!!!bley jadi mangkok tingkat sey....tk tau lar da bape tingkat nih..kalo naik rocket pon tk smpai gaknye...tv pon bkn nye ade crite...mcm nk campak jek tv dr atas...

argh!!!tidak!!!im dying!!!

btw,he made for me another video...abt us....so swit n kiut...reali touch ma hart...but...rule no.1?

toking abt rule no.1..i seems to ignore it sey...i betrayd ma rule no.1:jgn mengharap...coz i AM mengharap sey...evri single day he surely msg/col me...n evritym if he didnt do tat....i MIZ him so badly...n im nt supposed to do tat!!cmon jannah!!i tot we're frenz??frenz dun miz each other lyk tat...argh!!!its killing me...im too near but yet im afraid i might getting hurt again...i noe i dun wan tat...but i cant help it...i reali miz him n luv him lotz...wat am i supposed to do now??im super doper crazy for him...i cant stop looking at his pix...i cant stop reading ALL his msgs...!!!yikes!!!

i LUV him lar....mangkok2...!!!!!i bet im driving him away now...

2006-01-27T11:01:00.000-08:00

okei...1 more hrs...at th struck of midnite...my bezfren,nad,will turn......
20!!!!

hahah...babe..HAPI BEDAY..

i noe blom lagik kul 12 lar...but takot aku tertido...yela...aku kan skg ngah jadi nenek tue...badan sakit...so kene tido n baring jek...ishk!!may u b a gd daughter to ur parents...a gd sis to ur bros...a gd fren to ur frenz...a gd servant to Allah...

hmm...evribody turning 20...yikes!im turning 20 in 2 more mth...ishk!tue nye...tk bley angkat...tk bley angkat...

k lar...todae didnt do neting much...sleep n sleep all th way...ma back hurt th most...upset...now im all alone at home...ma parents g melawat...ma sis send them wif car..ishk!!bored to th max...cant help it...!!

im bored.

k...got tis from sum1...hmm...abit true lar abt th gurl...but duno lar abt th guyz...tkpe lar...read jek keh...

Guys facts:
When a guy calls u
he wants to be with you

When a guy is quiet,
He's listening to you...

When a guy is not arguing,
He realizes he's wrong

When a guy says, "I'm fine,"after a few minutes,
he means it

When a guy stares at you,
he thinks you're the most beautiful thing in the world

When you're laying your head on a guy's chest
he has the world

When a guy calls you everyday
he is in love

When a (good) guy say he loves you
he means it

When a guy says he can't live without you
he's with you till your done

When a guy says, "I miss you,"
he misses you more than you could have ever missed him or anything else

Girl facts:
When a girl is quiet,
millions of things are running through her mind.

When a girl is not arguing,
she is thinking deeply.

When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions,
she is wondering how long you will be around.

When a girl answers, "I'm fine," after a few seconds,
she is not at all fine.

When a girl stares at you
,she is wondering why you are sowonderful.

When a girl lays on your chest,
she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a girl calls you everyday,
she is seeking for your attention.

When a girl wants to see you everyday,
she wants to be pampered.

When a girl says, "I'll love you forever,"
she means it.

When a girl says that she can't live without you,
she has made up her mind that you are her future.

When a girl says, "I miss you,"
no one in this world can miss you more than that

2006-01-27T09:26:00.000-08:00

haha...todae super doper late...i woke up at 7.45!!...now juz reach skol...having ma smart ledger lesson...since i came in late...ma swit tchr askd me nt to do...later copy frm imah's file...haha...tanx2!!
super doper tired...!ma eyes cant open...sepet to th max...haha...sar said tat she cant c my eyes...hahah...my legs hurts...my hands hurts...my WHOLE body hurts...mcm nenek tue uh...i took cab keh todae...mangkok!!ishk!k lar...update laterz....

i luv u...i luv u..i luv u...hahahahahahahahha...belo!

2006-01-26T21:12:00.000-08:00

tired.legs aching...th whole body's hurt...i did well for ma napfa...haha....since morning da kanciong keh teringatkan napfa...n im late again for skol...ishk!
cant do ma assignment in claz sey...teringatkan napfa...hahaha...cmon uh...its ma 1st tym okei...laz tym at madrasah tkde napfa...geram keh..!!todae did ALL 5 station include running keh...tk ke mangkok!b4 doing all th station...i kept on singing 'berdegup jantong ku...teringatkan napfa test..ah ah..!!'lepak keh...kept on singing n singin include th dance...hahah....ma clazmate gave me moral support keh....so swit of them...
1st station-inclined pull-up...hahah...so kanciong...as usual....i didnt noe how to do ALL th station...my attendance no. 19...upset...wen ma turn...ma clazmate ALL cheer for me...kiut keh drg...n as usual...ma palm th sweaty-mety...i wiped it 3 tyms keh b4 doing it...hahaha....i manage to get 7..so its 3pts eh?ntah uh...
2nd station-standing broad jump...tis one very funny...pat tepi corner practise nye practise...imah ajar...nasib baik uh dia byk saba...i cant jump...hahah...smngat swing2...jump dia dekat jek...but wen doing it...i manage to get 145...sedih keh...nk redo again during our s&w uh...tk puas ati...!!!
3rd station-shutter run...yeay!!laz tym used to do it during our rugby training...hahah....at 1st i got 13+ uh...becoz terjatoh keh wen turn...kaki tersprain...ishk!!den redo again..i manage to get 11.6...so its a 4pts...geram keh...nk dpt 5 pts its 11.3...3 sec more...!!!
4th station-sit up...haha...i manage to make 37 in 1 mins...so its a 5 pts...!!!yeay!!to get 5 pts mesti >30...haha...ni bangge gile keh...hahahah
5th station-sit n reach...k ni upset skit uh...i cant even touch ma leg keh kalo stretch...i hv back bone prob...hehehe...so i manage to get 3 pts...i forgot lar bape byk dpt....
so its th laz ting....its th 2.4..!!!i hate to run...it started frm th HDB flat near th bishan park...ran till th traffic light pat main road den go back...ishk!!i remember sia imah said tat th 1st round no matter how tired u r...dun stop...jog oso can...so i run n run....n evrytym wen i feel damn tired i remember imah face..'nana!!lari jek..!!!'hahahah...i run non-stop till reach th nex station...after patah alik...tu da pancit gile babi...stat to walk abit...jog abit...ishk!!den da nk smpai...beh da nmpak imah(biase lar diakan abiz cpat..)...member da pekik2...'nana!!!cpat..!!da nk smpai..!!'n i reali dash sey...hahahah...lari to th max nye...!!!wahaha..!!my no. is 111 keh...mangkok gile...!!!

at laz!!th napfa test da biz!!!yippie...!!!!!suke2...!!!ngah tunggu lar result nye...asal kan pass sua...wahahhaha....now having back ache...muscle all cramp..ishk!!

advise to ALL madrasah student if u wana join th government skol...plz exercise more...do run...dun find any reasons nt to run...lari!!!!

hahah...i hv ALOT of gd news todae...my cuzzie passd his bike license...dia hapi gile...haha...congrats...da de motor tkmo vvroom sane vrooom sini...n ma bezfren da li hp aru...hahaha..!!confem hapi nye dia...akuhapi jgak..hahah...n he can take his exam..!!!hapi2...super doper hapi wif th ppl ard me..!!!luv u ALL!!!

so nex ting to do...do well for ma exam...nx stop...poly!!!n apply my BTT again n again...3rd tym..hahahah....ape tk...nari BTT pagi aru nk blaja...hahaaha....

k lar..wat a boring entry todae...n tiring...my hands reali tired of typing....adios peepz!!!i nid a rest...can sum1 massage ma aching body???heheheh

2006-01-25T21:56:00.000-08:00

"Setiap malam Kutunggu panggilanmu
Resah hatiku menanti
Walaupun sehari takku dengar suaramu
Hati rindu...
Kuterasa dunia ini bagai terhenti"

im lost babe...

2006-01-25T20:55:00.000-08:00

todae i reach skol late again..!!wats wrong wif me???asyik lmbat jek....ishk!!!upset...actuali tk lmbat uh...after me alight frm th bus...th gate still open uh...i walk n walk(lincah gile keh)...bile smpai jek councillor kental nih g tutop gate rite infront of ma face...chet!den show me damn *toot face...menyampah keh..dia pikir dia councillor aku takot ke..??peee dah...pd hal org pat dlm smue masih jln keh nk g assembly area...geram tau...!!!da lar bustop da jauh...its at th new mosque ther...ishk!!!so yeah...detention...da belambak...sar blom sound agik..i tink da tk kene uat detention agik tk...ntah lar...

let me share u a story...evryday at tis 1 buztop at hougang lar...de tis couple...chinese...age ard late 30s i guez...evryday th wife will take th same buz as me...n swit keh husband dia evrytym tunggu pat bustop smpai lar bus tu jln aru dia croz over th other side...hahah...beh drg keep on waving n waving till th bus move...ishk!!swit kan...???old couple but still deeply in luv wif each other...ni confem mlm dpt nye...eyy...wat were u tinking..?i said dpt makan...hahahah!!

hmmm....came acroz sum1's blog...its a her lar...toking abt her bf...drg aru stead keh todae....n tell th whole story abt how th guy sound her stead n all lar...ishk!!so swit lar...having sum1 u luv...she lyk him for so long keh...they were gd fren laz tym...n now they're togeder....hmm...i reali wan sum1 to sound me stead face to face lar...hahaha...confem paisey eh...slame ni experience smue sound pat tepon...haha...boring lar...tapi bez jgk...nanti gagap2...haha!!i lyk romantic tings....hmm...i still remember HE chased after me at somerset mrt den kneeld down in front of evrybody keh juz to say sori...paisey babe...org smue tgk...blushed abiz..nk nangis pon ade...wahahahah....emo2...swit memories..!!

k wat wif relationship entry todae..??i oso duno...juz wana tok abt it...ishk!tmr ma napfa test...i didnt practise at all...!!!upset!2.4 confem pancit...ishk!!>14 mins keh..!!during napfa lar how i wish i were 20 yrs old...!!!20 yrs old >15mins keh...i noe lar its juz 1 min jek...but its DAMN BIG TING LAR..!!ishk!!im still 19...tk fair...!!push up >30...pull up..lupe lar bape...shutter run 11sec?i tink uh...standing broadjump?mangkok keh...i duno how to jump TAT far...heee....confem byk ketawe nye...tkmo!sit n reach?lahai...badan tk flexible uh...hahah!!takot plak nk de napfa...having butterflies in th stomach now...hope tat i pass keh...takot uh...tk penah2 takot camni..MAK TOLONG!!!!

2006-01-24T23:31:00.000-08:00

k i post 3 tyms todae...hehe...nuting better to do...but i wana put tis in ma entry...got it in sum1's blog...

"if he still doesnt comes back to u if u have plead, kneeled down and begged him not to go,i think its time for u to let go.cuz he is just one fucking dirtbag.cuz he will definitely comes back to you once he realise ur gone.but that doesnt mean u gotta go back to him."

hmm...wat do ya tink?i cant compare anybody's relationship wif my so-called lyf now...its diff..n to me...mine's special...he's sum1 special...he noe me beta den anybody else...he oways noe how to cheer me up..he owayz complete ma day..

'kalo dia susa aru nk carik kau'...ishk!i care for evrybody...i'll b ther for evrybody...n evribody noes tat i luv him owayz....sorie peeps...cant help it...!coz its so damn true lar..im juz praying evry single day tat he feels th same way too...but...

rule no.1....

2006-01-24T16:43:00.001-08:00

what is your favorite color?
-red!!!

do you watch scary movies by yourself?
- nope...penakot gile uh...

what song are you listening to right now?
- all my life...

who was the last person who called you?
- HIM

are you talkative?
- i gues so....my frenz keep on asking me to shutup...

whats your favorite tv show?
- american nex top model

where's the place you wanna be at right now?
- sumwher to clear up my messy mind

what do you do when you see a spider?
- freaked out...im scared of ALL insect..

what song makes u sad the most when you hear it?
- perpisahan terasing

who do you wanna see right now??
- HIM

are you bored right now?
- yeah..sori u...i juz luv to do tis ques ting...hahaha

what was the last movie you saw in the movietheatre?
- cheaper by th dozen!!

do you have emo moments?
- owayz

are you a coffee addict??
- no coffee plz...or tea...milo can?can become CHAMPION..!!

Who did you last go out with?
-HIM

What do you want to receive on your birthday?
-wrap him up n giv it to me as ma beday prezzie...

What time did you sleep last night?
-12.30 i guez

What's the wallpaper on your computer?
-th pic of th cliquez during tasha's beday...

What are you going to do 5 hours later?
-eat n sleep...hahah

Is there anyone you're thinking of now?
-yeah...him...hope he's okei...

What was the last thingyou touched before the keyboard?
-my hp...

Name 2 people you love....
-frenz n him

When, where was the last time tearsstarted to roll down your cheek?
-juz now...heard sumbody cry...makes me sad...

What/who makes you happy?
-wen im wif him

What makes you sad?
-tink abt us

Who will you turn to if you have a hugeproblem that not all your friends know about?
-HIM n oso bezfren

What's your favorite song at the moment?
-here w/o u

What was thelast song that kept ringing on?
-forever

hahah...quote for todae....
looking into each other's eyes--->how i wish ure mine....

2006-01-24T16:23:00.000-08:00

todae th most upset ting happen in ma lyf....(chey bedek uh)...i woke up late...1st tym i 4got to set alarm clock on ma hp...mummy didnt wake me up coz she tinks tat her daughter masok skola lambat...helo?hari2 kan masok kul 8...ishk!!didnt scold ma mum lar...infact angon kul 8.30 masih bley termenung...hahah...reach skol at 10...slack...todae tkde s&w...but supposed to go running wif sar at bishan park...heh!sorie sar...the whole journey to skol tok to him...hehe...
afta tat sumting came up...troz cabot skola...ard 11+ gitu....hahah...i wasted 1hr journey den alik...hahaha...
hmm...how do u handle stres??how u handle failure?hmm...failure doesnt mean fail pat skol ke ape ke ah...pat mane2 pon ade kegagalan...heheh...nobody's perfect...ive experienced failure looong looong ago....how i overcome it?to me...dun u ever giv up...coz its nt th end of th world...if i failed,i tink abt ppl surround me hu luv me...include Allah...He wont burden us more than wat we can bear...God's nt cruel...so yeah...mmg uh kalo stres pikir cam nk mati ke ape kan...ni smue keje2 setan...wen ure down...setan will b ther for u...hahaha....they will ask u to do stupid2 tings...if u eva wana hurt urself...stop n turn...pisau tu letak...den sepak setan n piat telinga dia...(hahahahahah...th joke of th day...its a private joke...heh!)lyk ppl said...biar lar jauh mane kite blaja...as long as we neva giv up....our parents tonggang tebalik carik duit utk kite skola...mmg uh sape suro kan...but its for our future...gd qualification-hapi in lyf...insyaAllah...
hmmm...i feel bad keh wen U did TAT...i feel cam disapointed...coz laz tym u PROMISE me nt to do it again...i feel upset wen u did it again...laz tym i was th 1 hu stop u frm doin it...but now i failed to do it...feel so useless...

btw..he made for me a so-called video clip...hehe...de lagu 'heaven' n it juz shows th pic of me n him togeder2....nuting biggy ler...it juz...i duno....i feel...its sumting special...hehe...now im having th stoopid grin...haha.....

i'll owayz b ther for u...no matter wat happens...

2006-01-23T22:31:00.000-08:00

ma day complete.
senyuman upsetku..heh!

haha...okei...ma mouth infection r back again....damn!so itchy...haha...ive watch cheaper by th dozen 2...tanx to sum1..heh!tank u,u! i noe its boring lar(to u...) tanx n tanx...muacks!hehe...
cant update tat much...im doin ma report for ma entre...heh!nid to hand in tmr...!!

im hapi...but i duno y im abit upset..!!!chet!!
2 more dayz 4 ma napfa

I'm here without you baby

But you're still on my lonely mind

I think about you baby

and I dream about you all the time

2006-01-22T15:06:00.000-08:00

okei...im late again for ma claz...shesshh...bley kene buang keje ni mcm...todae th kidz reali2 getting on ma nerves...wen i askd them to read...i mean...READ...nt toking....th boyz keep on toking n toking until im reali pissd off...i shout at them...haha...drg smue diam keh...den 1 gurl said...'ayo!kan ustazah da mara...dia suro bace kan bukan bebual2...'gee..tanx thahirah...th boyz reali lar kecoh...tapi tk bace pon tanye soalan dpt keh...hmmm....den for ma second claz....tis 1 boy said to me...'cher..th teacher yg ari tuh aja kite tu dia tinggal pat dpan my blk tau..beh i hari2 nmpak dia...ari tuh i nmpak dia pat dapor...i pkai binoculars...!!'ishk!da cam psycho lar bdk2 nih...hahah..... ive received ma pay..!!alhamdulillah...been waiting for ma pay for 2 mth!!heh!nid to save it up...pay bills...shopping here n ther...hahahahah...nad's beday coming...ishk!
ma parents wen to batam...haha....shopping...mls keh...asyik nk g shopping jek parents aku nih...ishk!imah n sar coming over to my plac todae...doing our report...nid to hand in on tues...chet!
my sis bought vcd uh yest...'th perfect man'..de hillary duff..suke suke..hehe...th story bez uh...abt th mother asyik pindah2 umah jek wen broke up wif bf..upset keh...pindah2 cam funfair...th story is abt luv...th perfect man will owayz b ther...no nid for u to find them..they will come...ishk!i hate watching luv stories...makes me emo-ish after watching it...n now im damn emo uh...

y do luv hurts?it hurts even more wen u luv sum1..but u didnt hv th chance to express it..coz tat sum1,hd sumbody else in mind..n tell me again y im still here?y i choose to b here?i choose to b frenz becoz its th only way to hv him near me...cloz but yet so far away....wat if he decided to settle down wif sum1?i noe ive experience tat b4...but wld i b able to experience it for th 2nd tym?i dunno...im still here becoz im still putting all my affort to win his hart back...but wat if it go down th drain?well...den it shld b in th drain i guez...if he decided to settle down...i guez i'll stop...i'll stop evriting n will stay away frm him n hope tat he'll hv a great lyf wif sum1 new...i'll b ur fren...wen u nid me...i will b ther for u...but if i nid u...i dun tink i will find u...i'll juz keep it to myself...coz i dun wana disturb anybody's lyf...rite now im juz cherish evri moment in ma lyf..(mcm org nk mati plak...heh!)i remember wat nad said to me...'cherish evri moment..forget th past,wori nt abt th future..juz continue cherishing ur luv for him..hell wif aniting else..'hahaha...it inspired me alot....

emo entry afta watching emo story...hahah

2006-01-21T22:39:00.000-08:00

hd miting in th morning...late again..haha...mummy askd me to buy for jazli's medicine...tats y im late...haha...n oso woke up late uh...den wen to eat wif th memberz at sakura...haha...den me n ma bezfren walk2 ard town n we sick of ppl here n ther...ramai gile dok pat town...rimas...!!hate goin to town......haha...we're damn bored lar...n for soooooo long didnt wen out wif her...ALOT of stories to update...haha...she's hapi wif her LALING...chet!!jeles babe....tapi tkpe...im hapi for ya...
mit up ma cuzzie...me,nad n him wen to NLB...tk uat pape...juz lepak2 cam budak belo...took pix here n ther...haha...

me n ma cuzzie...a very2 cloz cuzzie...haha...single n available....chey!!promote...hahahah....

3 ppl wearing shoez...tired of walking...

duno wat to do...slack ler....boring dok...

haha...i miz lepaking wif nad...eventho its boring...but we hd fun rite?haha...th obsessed eyez...th obsessed pix...wahah...nad said i had a beautiful eyez....weird...nad...a guy shld said tat to me...nt u....but tanx...hahah...k nid to sleep uh...tired babe...tmr ngaja agik...nk g gym uh tmr wif ma sis...hahah...smangt utk napfa....thurs dok...ishk!!

k...laz but nt least...I MIZ HIM SOOOO BADLY....HELP!!!!!

2006-01-20T20:58:00.000-08:00

haha...at laz i hd ma peaceful sleep n rest afta 1wk straight since laz sat...been too bz lar...den juz now finis skol at 11am denn wen home straight n sleep n sleep...haha...6hrs sleep...!!!n now still sleepy...hhahahah....
now im damn bored lar...duno wat to do...wana tok to sum1...but...dun tink tat person wana tok to me..ppl hv their own lyf...cant force them...frenz come n go...haiz...i miz playing rugby..miz th rugby mates...ishk..!!2 more mth till graduation...hmmm...

Everybody knows
That I was such a fool
To ever let go of you
But baby I was wrong
And yeah I know I said
We'd be better off alone
It was time that we moved on
I know I broke your heart
I didn't mean to break your heart

Chorus:
But baby, here I am
Banging on your front door
My pride's spilled on the floor
My hands and knees are bruised
And I'm crawling back to you
Begging for a second chance
Are you gonna let me in?
I was running from the truth
And now I'm crawling back to you

I know you're in there
And you can make me wait
But I'm not gonna wait
This is the least that I can do
Just is to tell you face to face
I was lying to myself
Now I'm dying in this hell
Girl, I know you're mad
I can't blame you for being mad

Chorus:But baby, here I am
Banging on your front door
My pride's spilled on the floor
My hands and knees are bruised
And now I'm crawling back to you
Begging for a second chance
Are you gonna let me in?
I was running from the truth
And now I'm crawling back to you

If you could see these tears I'm crying
Touch these hands that can't stop shaking
Hear my heart that's barely beating
You would see a different man

haha..tis song keep on playing again n again in ma player..hahaha..crawling back to u??hmm...dun tink i will crawl...i tink i will walk..hahahah....

i miz u lyk crazee....

2006-01-20T20:20:00.000-08:00

What is the one thing you regret the most?
> losing HIM
Where is your favorite place you have ever been?
> punggol end...hahah...wif sum1...
What is the worst thing you ever did?
> lotx of tings...
How many boyfriends or girlfriends did you have?
> hmmm...cant count them...i can b frenz wif evribody...
Do you like who you are right now?
> dun tink so...my attitude sux..!!
Are you single or taken?
> single...taken?nope
Who is the one person you miss the most?
> H-I-M
Do you drink?
> of coz lar...kalo tk,mati kehausan camne...
Do you smoke?
> nah...i hate smokerz
Do you miss anything?
> yup...HIM
Do you wish everything was different?
> yup2...wher tings used to be...
Do you have a favorite thing to do on a rainy day?
> yup...sleep or mayb juz chill out wif ma frenz
What is the ONE thing that you could not live without?
> air....
What song is the first one on your playlist at this very moment?
> forever-damage
What was the most exciting thing you did all day?
> sleeping...im damn tired...
What is the most boring thing that happened all day?
> look at ma fon n hope tat he will col/msg...th feeling sux...
Do you have a crush?
> yup2...HE will b ma truly crush..heh!
What TV show can you absolutly not miss ever?
> american nex top model...i lyk!!
What is your favorite sport to play?
> rugby!!!!
What is your favorite band?
> lotx n lotx...
What is the most important feeling you have?
> LOVE...
What makes you mad?
> if sum1 irritate me n test ma patience...
What makes you sad?
> wat we are rite now...
What makes you happy?
> being wif him..
What makes you fall in love?
> c sum1 eyebrows...wif a scar...hahah
Have you ever been in love?
> yeah...n hope tat it will owayz b tat sum1....
What's your favorite quote?
> mangkok!
Where do you see yourself in 10 years?
> a gd wife...a mother..a gd job...
What job do you want to have?
>teaching!!!i wana b a teacher...!!
What is the one thing you NEED to happen?
> he came back to me?can?but...dun tink so...heh!
Who do you wish you could visit to show off to?
> huh?show off?for wat?tis is no longer secondary skol nk show off sane sini...
Who is one person you NEVER want to see again?
> hey...im nt tat cruel uh...
Where do you want to live?
> my place can...
Do you want a house or an apartment?
> apartment...can imagine ma houz...hmmm...
Who is one person you must talk to?
> nad...haha...n him
What car do you drive?
> volkswagon beetle red color...hahah...dream on...
Are you close with your family?
> yup...ma family th bez...cheaper by th dozen!!!
Will you die happy?
> ajal dan maut ditangan Tuhan...
Do you like the sound of your own voice when you hear it played back?
> dun tink so...ppl said my voice can b abit irritating...coz i tok kecoh ler...
Do you prefer to date people younger, older, or the same age as you?
> same age!erm...but i younger boyz...hahah
Do you listen to songs on repeat often?
> yeah...i can repeat it again n again till mangkok
Who was the last person you hung out with?
> HIM....
What did you and that person do?
> haha...cant tell much...bcoz its special to me...hahahah...mepek2

2006-01-19T22:55:00.000-08:00

k...sumone post tis in th bulletin board at frenster...check it out...

Guys.
realize that the girl holding onto u..
is PERFECT in their own special way.
The way she laughs..
The way she sleeps..
The way she loves you..
The way she tries to please you...

Always remember that.
She can always walk away and up,getting someone else who can love her more.
For all you know,there is someone out there wooing her already,but she is rejecting,
a maybe perfect love for her..
There might also be someone out there..
who is willing to love her more than you are loving her now,
fufill her every need and love her as much as she loves you.

Understand that.
Girls have a huge guilty concience....
imagine this, guys.
When you are holding her today...
and then you cheat on her by hugging and kissing another gal.
and then you run back to her...
and u do the same....
but you see love in her eyes...
What do you think?
Do you feel the hurt?
Can you feel the guilt?

She loves you not because
you are good looking,
have money,
buy her things,
make her parents happy,
or that you have a car.

She loves you for who you are.
Your every touch,
every word you say,
everything you do.

Guys.
Cherish and appreciate your girl.
Don't break her fragile heart.
She is the only one who can love you that way.
You won't wanna regret letting go of that special girl you have.
For everything she has done for you,
the least you can do is to give her unconditional love as she has given to you.

k...i hv no comment wif tis ting...but tis is how i feel rite now sey...haha...weird...

2006-01-19T22:37:00.000-08:00

th flea market was a success!!hahah!!!tats our shop name...we sell aiskim..haha...lotx n lotx of customer...we manage to finish ALL our aiskim...ppl said tat our shop decoration kiut...of coz lar...hv kiut ppl rite...hahahahh...chet...didnt took tat much fotos...bz lar...i was th one hu scoop th aiskim...ishk...da bley keje pat swensens tk??hahaha...fun fun fun...tats th most important tings...

tanx to ma team member...imah,tasha,sar n yus...sori if i make any mistakes by scolding u ppl or wateva i did...we reali had fun juz now...hope tat we win sumting ler...damn tiring lar...in th morning wen here n ther to collect our stuff...hahah...laz min buy aiskim...ishk!!!

enjoy th fotos lar...pnat uh nk cite panjang2...

th preparation in th morning...hehe...bz2...super bz...

th 2 gurlz hu did th aiskim...me n sar...th apron?hahah...look familiar...hahahha

th kiut2 gurl in th company...

th 2 mascot...hahah...th skate till canteen keh to promote our aiskim...

aiskim nione??hahaha...muke mangkok!!!

tym to pack up...our aiskim finis oreadi...heheh

we had fun rite gurlz...yippie!!!

haha...okei2...eventho ma day was so tiring...but i reali hd fun...lagik2 afta tat...haha...

he col me at a rite tym...askd me how was it n all...den he said he wana mit me...haha..yippie..it complete ma day...haha...we wen to eat...den playd pool...4-1...haha..aku yg kala...den walk2...buy cakes n all...ishk!!nuting special lar...but....da tk ckp byk lar...im still wif ma rule no.1...'jgn mengharap'...but cant help it...u...th outing was fun lar...i do miz u ALOT...ishk!!sorie....we're frenz rite...F-R-E-N-Z...ure cloz to me but yet so far away...ure sick rite?haiz...dun forget to take ur medicine...den hv a rest...dun forget to study for ur test....get well soon n take care...hope to c u again...!